autumn swiftlet's diary

我... 不知道能撑多久

2012-02-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

发现自己已经到了一个非常危险的阶段.

这是我在短短的两个星期内第三次崩溃.

辛苦了5年,我一次都不曾为了工作而掉眼泪.

现在, 我累了.

有个小声音要我放弃. 但是我总觉得还学的不够.

我知道我的经验还非常的不足. 只是, 我真的很累了.

同事说我需要懂得条理时间. 但是每一样事情都是立刻, 马上, 现在都要的. 就算我安排了时间, 赶出来的东西还不是乱七八糟的...

有时觉得有点的不公平. 我还是个新人, 为什么我手上的工作还比有经验的同事多?

我... 不知道能撑多久.

喜欢上了他

2012-02-01T22:41:00.001+08:00

喜欢上了他，很难去认识别的新男生。也不想给那些不适合的男生假希望。

很想念他，完全没那个心让些空间给其他的事情。

除非，我认识一个条件比他更好的。

有点点的伤心，还没尽力，机会就没了。

3 hot guys

2012-01-31T00:11:00.001+08:00

1. IT technician

Super sweet talk guy, and super sexy and good-looking guy from UT department. But married with a 2-year-old daughter. Been sweet talked with me for one whole day. I suppose that's just his style.

2. Property agent

Super duper nice guy. Totally out of expectation asked me out for dinner. Chit-chatting half way blurted out saying lately is kinda close with a girl - his type, but still not ready for a relationship yet. I was just abt to put some efforts...

3. Ex-schoolmate

Super playboy, pretty hot too. Sounded intelligent with special kind of thinking. Entertained for the half of the night for 'cooking porridge' with him - one and a half hour.

So I suppose I'm one lucky girl for being entertained by 3 hot guys for the one whole day.

Just too bad none is suitable.

A little sad

2012-01-29T21:41:00.001+08:00

It's a bit sad that he didn't text me at all during the CNY.

I suppose it's just 有缘无份。

Another passer by. Sigh...

I know nothing much abt him too anyway.

Love is in the air

2012-01-19T09:03:00.001+08:00

I'm on cloud 9...

I'm having so much butterflies in my tummy...

I'm feeling...

In love again...

For hearing his sleepy voice early in the morning for giving me a morning call.

Everything new for New Year!!!

2012-01-15T10:49:00.002+08:00

For the last 2 or 3 years during university time, I didn't buy everything new for the CNY. Most probably because I didn't really think that it is necessary as sometimes I will buy some new clothes and shoes...

But this year since I didn't have any time to do a good shopping. I bought everything for CNY. From top to bottom.

I've got my hair permed and colour, nearly RM500 already flown away... (Please don't tell my mom about it. She's gonna jump hearing this.)

I've bought 2 dresses from Bugis: one can be worn for working; one for dinner and casual outing.

I've bought a pair of MNG jeans, which I supposed to buy 2. Sigh. So cheap back in JB. You see, the price tag stated RM79, but back in Singapore, it's tagged SG$39! Which is RM17 more expensive. I know I shouldn't convert like that but, since JB is so near, I might as well get from there right? Maybe will get the other one when I am on the way to Senai to fly back Kuching this coming Sunday. Since I hardly update my jeans too.

I've bought 2 shirts, a shorts and 2 belts from Bugis: Cheap and fashionable as usual. All these about $42 only? :D

I've bought a small handbag from Charles and Keith. :D (After parents complaining stop buying things for long-term used from Bugis)

I've bought 3 pairs of shoes: 1 wedge and 1 heels from Charles and Keith; 1 loafers from Bugis. Best shopping of all! Supposedly just one wedge and one flats only. But I totally couldn't help it. The wedge and heels are too comfy... And since I didn't have a wedge before and my current heels are a bit too old already (nearly 3 years?), so I decided to grab them 2. The reason I went to Charles and Keith is because, those good looking shoes sold in Bugis, are about the same price in Charles and Keith. If it's like that, why don't I just grab from there instead of risking getting something 'Made in China'? Although Charles and Keith are 'Made in Malaysia' which is kinda cutting of the steam too... So for loafers, I went to Bugis and grab one. A comfy one too. :D

And 3 pairs of new earrings from Bugis. :D wanted to grab a nice necklace, but $15... Hm...

But anyway, I'm still the happiest girl in the world. :D

A little... Crush

2012-01-13T20:30:00.001+08:00

Too much of butterflies in the tummy, makes me so difficult to conceal what I feel inside.

I can't believe that I have moved on.

I... Will try. Putting efforts now.

Way too fed up and dissappointed

2011-11-27T20:19:00.004+08:00

I will be moving out on 11th Dec, which is 14 days from today.

And I haven't found a place yet.

Why?

At first we had 5 persons, all planing was perfect for sharing a unit. Since I'm the one have to move out earlier I started the searching since 2 weeks ago.

You see, unit or room rental in Singapore is hell expensive. That's why we need more people to share up the rental. The 1st week, everyone was fine, since everyone was on the same direction. So I've texted 5 or 6 agents to help to look around. Given them all our requirements, they came back with their hunting results, asking us to go have a look. The 2 new girls, couldn't make it for viewing, fine. They went for the viewing the next few days, came back complaining this and that. Giving everyone headaches as their reasons were not reasonable.

The one whole week was hell crazy for me as agents were texting me chasing me for feedbacks. I'm working too. I have OTs too. But no one was helping me to search. I am the one doing all the works, answering all the calls, compromising everything between everyone and the agents.

End of one week, the 2 girls back out of the plan. Great. Lessen our headaches.

Now only 2 of us left. I thought it was gonna be easier. It turned out not too.

I was trying very hard to squeeze my time for viewings too. The selling of room rental is faster than unit rental. The other couldn't make it to the viewing, I had to go then report every detail for her to check up. Coz I'm not the only one staying in the room. Fine. I've taken everything in. I've done everything I could. Ended up?

Yes, now I'm on my own.

I'm OK with everything already. Why just no one can coorperate with me?

I have done everything I could already.

That's the market. That's how it is already.

I'm not just checking on one agent, to be honest. I'm doing my homework too.

Why no one can just understand?!

Viewed 7 units, all within budget for such locations, and none can satisfy anyone? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG?!

Nothing comes cheap. Everything has its price!

I'm so fuckingly tired.

Luckily the agent is so patient enough with me changing the plans all the time. And at least entertain me and keeping me happy to see him. To be honest, I think I start to like him.

Oh well, he's earning my money, of coz he has to serve me well.

I deserve it

2011-11-26T15:28:00.002+08:00

This is the 6th month I'm working in MLS.

I've been working like hell. Spending all my time focusing on my work.

I have been very hardworking to do everything. Because I'm always very thankful towards my caring colleagues.

But I find that I don't have any time left for myself. And my friends.

I have been very terrible. Everyone meets up every Friday for dinner after work. And I'm complaining that I wasn't invited or being notified.

All because I have never spent much time and effort for them.

I deserve it. I know. Sigh.

And now I'm on my own.

I need to balance my life back.

开始害怕了

2011-11-13T15:26:00.003+08:00

只想找个伴。为何那么的难?

不能再继续习惯一个人了。

开始觉得对寂寞有点害怕了。

The end? Yes it is.

2011-10-29T11:49:00.002+08:00

The last time I said it's the end, it didn't end.

This time, we made it clear. We've talked about it.

And we ended it.

No more.

U have to be out of my life forever.

No matter how hurt it is to look at your back, walking away again.

I'm sorry I have never fought for you. And for myself too.

But I don't want anything of mine is being hated by the whole world.

I still need my friends.

Sorry for being materialistic.

叹气

2011-10-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

人家说聪明的女人很难找男朋友.

我不聪明啊. 只不过有点点的事业. 也不算是事业啦... 好工作罢了.

但我还是很难碰到一个能交往的男生.

为什么啊?

我的男人缘, 那么的差吗?

玉婷竟然笑我说, '还没谈恋爱就失恋, 你还蛮失败的喔...'.

洪秋燕, 这女孩子, 就是那么的失败.

怎么办?

有谁可以介绍一些有效的药来救救她?

离开得到吗?

2011-10-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

就当决定放手时, 偏偏又有东西牵连着.

我... 几时才能离开你?

我... 几时才能找到一个比你更好的?

我... 几时才能把你忘掉?

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2011-09-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

忙。

很忙。

超级的忙。

I want my weekend back

2011-08-20T12:42:00.002+08:00

I terribly want my weekend back.

I want to spend time with me, myself and I.

The work could be fun and exciting.

But the workload is killing me.

Help.

I want some time of my own.

Please.

Busy working

2011-08-06T10:19:00.003+08:00

This is my 3rd month working under Meinhardt Light Studio.

So far, I still manage to like the job and get excited about new things everyday.

Besides rushing for drawings with the hell-tight datelines and OTs, I still like what I'm doing everyday.

After being entitled as a lighting designer, I'm trying very hard to digest every detail in every project to help my colleagues out. I didn't start the project from the beginning and it wasn't my design, of course it will take some time for me to get on hand of the progress of the project. It's just that the time doesn't allow me to spend some time to digest. Without the model of the building, it is even harder for me to understand the space of the project. I suppose it is the reason why I'm slow...

So I've decided. Since I have some time during the weekend, I will build up a model of each project, if possible, to ease my understanding towards the project.

Seriously, everyday working on CAD is great. Coz I don't have to use my brain to think and doing the design, just CAD in the corrected light fittings position done by my colleagues. But I'm here working as a lighting designer, not a draftman. I don't want to disappoint my team who entitled me as a designer instead of a design technician.

And I'm thankful for my team for giving me the chance to do design. I'm trying not to be so dependent on them anymore.

Next week, I will do design on revisions my own.

And of coz, reduce mistakes.

It has been the 3rd month. I have to be fast.

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Roommate has been complaining for bringing works back home.

It's not that I've been noisy or disturbing doing work at home.

She said I should spend some time for my own.

I wanted to, but the tight datelines is killing everyone in my team.

In addition of the stupid architect teams who keep on changing the design of the on-going construction and still complaining that we're running out of time there. Of course we're running out of time, halo! The construction is on going at site and u still change the design? After the changes has done by the architect, we still have to wait for the updated drawings from the interior designer! Use butt to think also know that every process takes time!

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There are good and bad working in Singapore though....

It's a well-developing country with a lot of professional from overseas. So u will have the chance to work with different people and gain more experience.

With advance technologies too, we work faster, and of course, things will get even more complicated at the same time. It's because human will always take granted when some part gets simplified. Since the technologies simplified the works, then more new projects coming in. That's the headache part.

There's nothing bad about it though... It's better than having no job to do and that means there will be no income. Rite?

But the bad part, besides long-hours of working, it's the travelling part here.

I'm talking about the Singaporean Chinese.

But it's just that one type of Singapore Chinese that I find myself dislike - the aunties.

Everyone knows that Singapore is famous for its super-jammed MRT. And when it comes to office hours, u will feel like going into hell whenever u're entering one. U see, it's already hell-jammed inside the train, and sometimes u will still have to make out some more space for those rushing for time. Fine. But! Although u've made out some space, and still there's aunty pushed u through and glared at u as if u're taken her place, what will u feel? And they love to cut queues too!

As for OT part... I thought I can survive it, coz besides feeling tired, I don't hate and get miserable from the job. Only recently I found that this lifestyle starts to get it consequences. I think I'm gonna get gastric soon due to the random timing of eating.

U see, I come back home around 9pm everyday. It's hell-tired already and the only thing in my head is heading home ASAP to sleep to prepare myself for busy tomorrow. The hungry stomach, well, I always leave it until next early morning only entertain it. The best that I did was drinking a mug of milk with some cookies or sometimes with cup noddles.

And I though that this could reduce my appetite and thus, slimming myself down.

But I was hell-wrong.

Even with breakfast everyday, I still eat a lot during lunch time. But I can see that the appetite has been reducing. And it's the tummy still can't get used to the new eating habit.

Poor thing.

I was too busy working and working without spending one minute to ask myself, 'How are you? Do you like it here?'

I wanted to slow things down here. I want to digest everything I'm doing here.

But no one allows me so.

Don't think I can survive long here.

I just want to say thank you

2011-07-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to show my appreciation towards your care if you continue to be so randomly cold to me.

You don't have to frown at me over small matters.

You can just tell me nicely.

You know the reason I went to you. You know that I could get comforts from you.

I'm always very thankful to have you here with me whenever I need you. But just deep inside. I want to say it out to you. It's just that, nothing allows me to do it.

If you could just allow me. Loosen up yourself and allow me to take the actions. Without putting all your guards up whenever I wanna approach.

You have no idea how hard I tried myself to get myself nearer to give you a hug without fearing that you will push me away.

You always just come whenever you like. But never allow me to do the same thing.

I don't want to ask for anything else. I just wanna show my appreciation towards your care.

My First ZARA

2011-07-17T12:32:00.006+08:00

After a tiring week of working, I went Vivo to loiter around to waste off the remaining time to have dinner with a friend.

I walked in to the Cotton On, Fox and some other street-level brandy outlets. Everything I saw wasn't worthy for me to open my purse.

Half and hour left for me to leave Vivo, I went down to the ground floor to check on Zara. For no reason.

Outside the entrance there were big signs saying 50% to 70% sales. I found it tempting so I walked in. Hell crowded inside!

Zara is always an expensive brand which I will never walk in coz I will walk out empty-handed.

And for the 1st time, I didn't!

I could not believe that there were less than $20 shirts in Zara!

And I grabbed 2. :D

Rosey red is never my style. I took it from the hanger and stared for quite a while, thinking. I remember what Doreen and Emily told me before, 'You will be in the middle of attention if you are wearing red. Coz very few people will wear that colour.' I didn't notice the price when I took it, until I gave it a try at the fitting room. Starring myself into the mirror, I fall for the colour.

It's $19.90 with the original price $39.90. My roommate keeps on telling me off not to convert the currency since I'm working and earning the Singaporean Dollar here. Thinking about it, it's time for me to upgrade my lifestyle. I mean slowly.

You see, $19.90 worth of a shirt from Zara and $29.90 shirt from Cotton On, of coz Zara is much much worthier! U know why?

All Zara clothes are tagged 'MADE IN PORTUGAL', instead of 'MADE IN CHINA', or 'MADE IN THAILAND', or 'MADE IN MALAYSIA'.

You see the point now?

That shopping really taught me a great lesson.

But -

The sales only comes once in a while.

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Although I'm still struggling here and there from the freedom I got from the new life, a lot of perceptions towards some things in life has changed.

A lot of things needed to be upgraded.

I need more break-through.

But at least, I've decided on one thing: I must fill myself with knowledge of lightings and photography.

Of course, I hope they can be the temporary ones, although they are a bit more common nowadays.

Anyway, I hope I can pick up more things in life later on. :)

Working life I imagined before

2011-07-02T22:50:00.003+08:00

Like we always see from any movie - drinking sessions among white collars with the guys wearing tie and suites, the ladies in their office ladies dress and high heels.

I had this twice within the 1st month I'm working here.

Seriously, I'm still kinda freak out whenever I went to this kinda drinking sessions, it's not that I'm not a good drinker and I'm gonna get spoiled or something. I'm afraid because this is a new life I'm facing.

Usually it's big companies' product launch events held at high-class areas where our company is invited to attend.

I always went with my team leader and his wife who takes care about me a lot. It's good coz it's the best time for me to get to know more people - which means BUSINESS. Everyone who went were all suppliers and consultants, you see.

But I'm still feeling weak and knowing nothing. I know I'm still very new in this, that's why I'm afraid.

Looks like I'm mentally not yet ready well for working yet.

I need more to boost the confidence in me.

And thinking that my namecards are coming soon isn't gonna help anything much...

But this is the working life I've imagined all this while, and something I'm yearning for - going out social and being a professional lady.

Come to think about it, what's the main goal of archiving these?

Self-satisfaction is never a good answer.

Getting a clever and rich husband? That's a good one though... Coz I can enjoy watching cute guys in suite. :)

But I still don't know what I want.

I can't just keep on climbing and climbing blindly.

I want to know what it is I'm heading to.

What's my main goal anyway?

Passion Vs. Realistic

2011-06-29T23:40:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I really hope that we can be more passionate towards our relationship, rather than just getting more and more realistic.

I know and it's a fact that it's a total mission impossible between us.

I just hope that there can be more passion between us.

Or is it it's you and it's me?

Weekend

2011-06-26T16:23:00.004+08:00

The 4th week of working in Singapore is coming soon. And this will be the 6th weekend I'm here.

Time flies freakingly fast. And I don't like it at all.

I need to slow down my steps to enjoy and digest everything I'm doing every second.

But I can hardly slow down. Everything is in a rush.

The only time I can slow down and enjoy my time is during weekend. Now I understand why people love it so much.

I never treasure it during uni time. Coz weekends that time were always the best time to do homework.

But locking myself one whole day inside the room doesn't seem good too. Maybe I should go out to have a breath or something. Maybe a jog?

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Still feeling lost for some sense of direction in my life though...

There are a lot of smaller plans to upgrade my life, but it isn't enough. I wish to have some goals in life, big ones. As in, some achievements. I don't know what I wanna achieve next.

I don't want just keep on working my butt off, earn some money, have some trips, or buying some stuffs for my parents. I want something big to be achieved. Like Pei Ni who wants to publish her stories.

But what do I want?

So I've finished my studies, and now got myself a job. But what's next?

My life has just begun and I don't know which direction I should drive it to.

Help?

How much chemicals we are using everyday?

2011-06-26T16:04:00.003+08:00

Do you have any idea how much chemicals we are using everyday?

Been wanting to write this for a long time already, after I found out how much stuffs I have here...

(Every individual has different usage, stated below are my own, and they are not in accordance.)

Lets' start from the beginning of the say...

Morning:

(a) Shower:

1. Hair shampoo

2. Hair conditioner

3. Body shampoo

4. Facial cleansing cream

5. Toothpaste

(b) Make-up

6. Foundation

7. Eye-liner

8. Eye-shadow

9. Blusher

10. Lipstick

11. Lip gloss

12. Mascara

13. Deodorant

14. Perfume

15. Hair gel

16. Make-up remover

17. Facial cleansing cream

19. Body milk

20. Facial hydrating lotion

21. Facial hydrating emulsion

22. Facial hydrating gel

(d) Additional

23. Nail remover

24. Base coat

25. Nail polisher

Disgusting isn't it?

My work @ MLS

2011-06-21T21:54:00.004+08:00

The company I'm working for now is Meinhardt under its Lighting Studio. Yes, it's all about lighting design. Not designing a lamp or something, it's more like positioning lights at correct spots and studying on the effects and amount of lights produced according to the aesthetic and functional needs.

I got this job from a friend from Singapore whom I met for about 3 or 4 times? It was before final when his wife chatted with me at Facebook saying that his husband's team needed a draught person to help out as they were rushing for big project, which I'm currently working on - Resort World of Sentosa (RWS).

Seriously, the work is not as heavy as what architecture does. The responsibilities aren't as heavy as it too, but lighting works are damn hell tedious. I can be a good draught person or even someone doing presentation, but wanting me to count and loop the circuit with long hours of starring on the computer screen, it's driving me crazy. Especially I'm starring at rainbow of lines with black background of AutoCad! It's costing to print so much, but it's even worse when you only notice the mistakes after the printing.

All the works I've done so far after 3 weeks of working there, none of them are perfectly correct. There's gotta be a mistake here and there. The worst so far was I've printed 40 pieces of A1, and they all screwed. Lucky me my team leader didn't shout at me.

FYI, my team leader is the fella who asked me to join for this job. Haha.

So yeah, there are mistakes everywhere no matter how many times I've checked. In terms of the format and style of the work, I'm kinda get hold of them already, the only left is the clumsiness, knowledge of lighting design, and communication.

I know I'm still new, but there's a lot I need to catch up and I find that I'm extremely slow. Seriously, I really don't like to make people think that I'm such a useless brat to be hired. I'm quite skillful with AutoCad and Photoshop. Just... needing some more time to get use to the working style and working environment.

As for my team leader, besides being a leader (project manager) of my team, he is also a friend outside work. I'm touched by the warmth from him and his wife for being so caring to me, especially his lovely and fun wife there. I appreciate and am thankful for the them offering me the job, really hope that I can do the same for them and won't let them down.

The internal meeting among us this morning was pretty motivating though. The team leader said that he wanted to push each of us (there are another 2 more colleagues besides me and my team leader, so it's just the 4 of us), to higher level through training us to be independent for handling projects.

Last week, when he told me that I will have namecards of my own, he mentioned that I need namecards because he will assign me an easier project from the RWS. This really got my freaked out. U have no idea how freaky the meetings with the other consultants are. Today I attended another one, I really got cold feet. There were architects, engineers, contractors and etc. Well, it's understandable that people will got flared up when progresses are slow and not up to datelines... But it's still scary.

Anyway, I find that I like this job. It's new and it still excites me. The only thing that got me annoyed is the counting and I'm being so clumsy. Sigh. I feel like I've given a lot of troubles for my colleagues. I've been trying to help out, just so afraid that the more I help, the more troubles I create.

Life here is still busy and busy. I should say busier and busier. New projects might be pouring in soon, so more night shifts are foreseen. But I really can't wait for September or October to come. Will update more about it soon. :)

That's all from me so far. So sleepy already. G'nite!

My new life in Singapore

2011-06-19T12:07:00.003+08:00

Today is the 4th weekend in Singapore.

So it's about nearly one month here and my 3rd week at RWS (Resort World Sentosa) Site Office.

And yes. I'm currently working at Resort World Sentosa. That's where my work station is currently. No, I'm not working at the casino or something. There are projects going on there, and my team is stationed to work at the site office with other consultants too. :)

The 1st day was pretty a culture shock to me coz:

1. This is the 1st time I'm working with a big company.

2. This is the 1st time I work at a site office.

3. This is the 1st time I work with other consultants at a same work place (engineers, suppliers, architects, lighting consultants etc).

4. And this is the 1st time I'm taking a lighting design job.

The work tasks, I have to say that it isn't as heavy as what architecture does. But the works (maybe it's because it's a huge project here) are extremely tedious.

Imagine the drawing prepared by the architects, then added some more stuffs by the interior designers, then us, for the locations for the light fittings and the looping of circuits.

So u can imgaine how messy the drawings are after handled by us.

So yeah, every night I went back feeling kinda dizzy coz working at AutoCad, the background is totally black with rainbows of lines.

The colleagues are good and friendly people. Very willing to teach me. Same thing with my team leader too, the one who recommending me for this job.

As for the accommodation, we found one at the 2nd weekend I was here at Commonwealth, staying with an old lady owner. Not so bad at all too. But we are still aiming for a whole unit of our own.

Now I'm still trying my best for adapting this working life.

Everyone keeps on asking me not to bring my work home for I should use that time to rest. But I've been like that ever since I started my studies in architecture.

And I know this: Working is working; studying was studying.

I'm just still adapting to my new life here.

And there are so many things I wanna do. But I suppose I only can settle them all off after my 1st pay. Haha.

Now, my CPU has down and Teng will come over my place to check it up for me. Later will go eat crab with friends.

So yeah, this is how I'm gonna end my weekend.

Pei Ni, u're the best

2011-05-29T12:17:00.005+08:00

I'm always touched by Pei Ni's warm hospitality.

Touched by her gift for my birthday.

Touched by her warmth for friends.

Thankful for her professionalism during our search for unit and room rental.

Thankful for her being optimism and faithful towards chances and lucks.

Don't know what I will do without her.

Life turning point

2011-05-27T17:11:00.004+08:00

Now that I've finally graduated, I really have to face my life of working. It's something I can't escape now.

It's true that I have FULL freedom of my own.

But I can't run away from obligations and responsibilities.

That... makes me to strive even more for life.

You see, there are so many things I don't know...

Works... Money... Financial... Plannings... Life... People...

Out of the sudden, there's so many things I wanna learn and know about.

Out of the sudden, I feel so empty inside.

There are so many things I don't know.

Thinking that I'm gonna work soon, maybe I can have the time to fill up the emptiness inside.

There's so many things I wanna do and buy too...

And they are all restrained by money.

I have to start to plan what I have to pay and how to use my salary.

I'm so stress.

Because I'm feeling so empty.

And because there are so many obligations and responsibilities poured on me out of the sudden.

Rubik's Cube

2011-05-25T11:06:00.003+08:00

When one piece of Rubik's Cube comes out, make sure to put it back as it is. If not, you would have to take everything off and put it back. It's one of the cheating tricks though...

And the consequences... the internal structure got ruined terribly.

What a RM2.50 Rubik's Cube.

My 2-week holiday

2011-05-25T10:49:00.003+08:00

My 2-week holiday, is just another assignment free holiday. That's it.

It's totally wrong that I have nothing to worry about - which I've mentioned the list of things I have to worry.

When I was extremely bored, I really hope that my phone would ring, or some messages from the messenger and email. Nothing.

But when I wanted to take full rest, I can't get myself away from the computer or my phone. Just in case I missed out anyone's callings. Coz I still have some obligations and responsibilities there.

Sigh...

Few times I've accidentally left my phone or been away from the computer for an afternoon. Ended up with tones of messages. Now I don't even dare to charge my phone in my room. Just in case I can't hear it from outside.

I even woke up worrying if I've missed out anything in the morning.

No more Daniel Wu's kisses.

FML.

Not in the mood

2011-05-24T21:15:00.004+08:00

Today was kind of a moody day to me. OK, not kinda. It's VERY.

1. Damn the hot weather.

2. Damn the period. Heavy flow.

3. Can't find the things I wanna buy: Nice cardigan, notebook, accessories...

4. RIP to my calculator alarm.

5. No scanner to scan my documents for the Employment Pass for my newly found job. Went to a friend's house then ended up the scanner cannot be used. Used my digital camera instead.

6. Left a cert at that friend's house, and just got awhile ago.

7. Until now still can't find any accommodation in Singapore. Makes me feel so useless here. And makes me frust the most. Ggrr...

8. So many things to pack.

9. Phone charger ki siao.

10. No new songs in my playlist.

11. No kaki to watch Pirates of the Caribbean with.

12. 2 weeks of holiday isn't enough for a rest lah!!!

13. Feels like after graduated, got one whole pile of IOU receipts to be cleared.

14. Mom wants an iPad 2.

15. Damn the stupid RM2.50 Rubik's Cube. Due to the weak internal structure, the pieces keep on coming out, and put back in the wrong orientation. Until I forgot all the steps to solve. And now I only manage to be able to solve one face out of 6 faces of the cube.

I know they all sound very minor. But when you got them all accumulated, they really got on my nerves.

I hate to keep undone things accumulated.

Ah... When am I gonna get them settled...?

Nature

2011-05-20T23:36:00.002+08:00

A windy evening walk with my parents around the neigbourhood. Found this at the road side.

These 3 shots were taken on a plant/tree, which, according to my parents, it's called the birdie tree, since its 'flowers' shaped like birdies without beaks.

Renewing myself

2011-05-18T14:33:00.009+08:00

Although 2 weeks is a little too short for me to take my rest, I'm gonna fill it up with lots of stuff - stuffs I don't do most of the time. My new look. Not this blog! It's for me!

Things as in... fashion?

Hairstyles?

Hairdo?

I'm not like other friends who likes to search up fashion tips and stuffs during school time. I'm a lazy person. Well, now that I'm about to go out working, it's time to get serious.

Last few days I was doing some research on what to do with my fringe / bang. Now I know. I really do need a hair dryer.

Ok, stop yelling.

It's not that I'm lazy.

I really hate to have my hair being frizzy after I blew it dry.

Seriously...

Anyway, I found this useful though. Coz I'm not very good in styling my hair, u see. And I like this hairstyle!

Something like this maybe? But I'm thinking to dye my hair... not sure which colour is suitable to this hairstyle though.

And since I have thick hair, I have no worries to try this hairstyle though. Coz if my hair is thin, I have a feeling that my face will look even bigger as the hair at both sides of my cheeks are thin. Rite?

And my sense of fashion... Well, I will still maintain the mature and sexy one, but there's this thematic fashion every now and then, isn't it? And now it's the Vintage era, so I needa update more on my wardrobe. Well, u see, I'm still wearing my shirt which I bought during my high school... Which is totally so out-dated.

So the first thing I did was, see and check what I have in hand 1st. Coz I'm just about to start working, I don't have much savings to buy and update my OL wearings. For ladies, it's easy when it comes to the mix-and-match rite? :D

Since I have a lot of not-so-formal shirts, I was thinking I can mix them with the scarves that I have in hand. And I found this website where it teaches girls how to style and tie scarves.

Just click on the image to go to the website. :)

And then I need cardigans, and blazers. For this, I found 2 websites which I found that both are good references for me: LookBook and Fashiono.

LookBook is a good reference where u see how people dress walking down the streets from all over the world. Well of coz, most of them are slim and good looking...

As for Fashiono, it's a Malaysian online boutique directory where u can check where which online stores all those nice dresses are from. There are even direct links posted there. How cool is that? :)

From LookBook, these are what I found:

Vintage enough? At least it's colourful for the formal, isn't it?

Boyfriend's shirts? I hope I manage grab some...

As for these 2, I like them coz it's long enough to match with leggings. :D

Next is the accessories. I have tones of earrings already - just bought another 6 from a vintage boutique shop back in JB.

Pastel and bright red - this is what vintage is all about!

Pastel and casual enough!

Formal enough? :D

Of coz I need some other things like the necklace, rings and maybe bracelets? I just finished online-window shopping. Indeed there are a lot of cheap stuffs. But since I haven't settled down of my where about, I better put it aside 1st. Postage wat...

Ok, next is shoes!!! Been wanting to buy loafers, but always that expensive. Hopefully can grab something cheap back in Kuching...

Convenient for my job, which might need me to go to site. Don't think I will stay at the office all the time doing Cad works.

Oh man I'm so tired after doing whole day of research. Still have other things to do. Sigh. Really wish that I can have a good rest this holiday though...

My uni life has come to an end

2011-05-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

Finally, my 5-years university life as an architecture student has come to an end.

It wasn't very bad and sad though...

I only know that I'm still very tired.

The final week I was in my campus, I was even busier than the weeks of me preparing for my pre-final and final. All because all those small small thingy set by those morons. My lifestyle was absolutely very healthy that time - woke up at 9am, slept at 1am. That crazy week, woke up at 9am, slept at 4am.

Luckily it's over now.

And indeed, time flies like hell.

Until now, I still can't believe that I'm at home now.

And still, there are a lot of things I have to do. It's driving me crazy.

A part of me wanting to list everything down and got them all properly.

But another part wants me to have my full rest 1st.

Indeed I had my full rest, playing games, lazying around with parents...

I suppose I have to start to do what I have to do now.

Seriously, thinking about it, I will only have 2 weeks left for me to rest until I start working. It's a little short from all those years of studying... But what to do, it's a new and good chance for me to explore new things.

I just hope that I can do well.

I'm 25 today

2011-04-30T21:47:00.004+08:00

I'm a quarter of a century today.

For the first time, I celebrated my birthday alone, with me, myself and I.

Ah well, it's a bad timing though... We have submission on Monday, presentation on Tuesday... Everyone's rushing their work.

Anyway, no matter how, I did a little celebration though...

I watched 2 movies just now. Haha. Fast & Furious 5 and Thor.

And surprisingly, both sucks big time.

Fast & Furious supposedly is about cars and speed. It ended up all about guns and shooting, and fighting.

Thor... Everything so not logic and unreal. Although it's a magical story, at least make it real a bit lah...

Kinda sad, aye?

But after I saw PeiNi's post and hinted had a prepared b'day present for me, I feel so touched... It's just like there's someone celebrated with me. Haha. I know it sounds silly, too lonely these days for staying too long in the room not going at all. Haha.

Oh yeah, to everyone who wishes me in Facebook and text messages -

Thank u so much! :)

So now...

Have no idea what to do.

I've run out of movies and dramas.

Re-watching 'Oh My Lady' the 3rd time last nite.

Sigh...

Maybe I should start doing the packing...

Hor?

Ok lah...

Happy birthday to me.

May all my dreams come true.

New interest: Composition

2011-04-25T14:28:00.005+08:00

I'm currently doing the 4th version of my portfolio, compiling all of my architecture works. The previous ones, they all look real suck to me.

The colours, arrangement, composition... everything all look so wrong. It shows the process of maturity of me, I supposed. I couldn't bare it anymore. So I look up online now to see those magazine page composition that I might be able to refer to...

And I found this website: PRETTY VACANT property and found a lot of magazine pages in it. Mostly are the architecture ones, and some like fashion pages from Glamour. What caught my attention is these...

The colour, the mood, the theme, the feel... Everything feels so fall into the right place. Everything is in the correct and compatible mood. Feels so right, that's what I should say. I'm gonna make them my desktop wallpapers! :D

It's not easy though... Doing composition work. U have to know what's the outcome of ur work - what kind of feeling u wanna produce; as long as u know what u wanan do, then find ways to produce that goal; check up reference to study and learn but not copying; have faith with urself, there's nothing u can't do in this world currently. Coz we have ADODE PHOTOSHOP!!! :D

Maybe I can consider a new job after I graduate. Maybe I can polish further the skills of composition work after the 5 years I learn in the architecture school and work at a publication office? I don't know...

Seriously, the more I think about the path I took, the more I feel relief of my choice -

I'm glad that I didn't take up Pharmacy and turn out to be a geek burying my nose on pages of books with hell lots of words...

I'm glad that I'm taking architecture and found who and how I want to be in my life. I'm glad that I've found what I like to do.

I'm glad that I'm not the same with everyone else.

I'm glad that I found some friends in architecture who make me realize and found who I really am.

I'm glad that I'm sharing similar interest with Dad and make him proud of what I'm doing.

Too bad that I dislike the work of drafting all day long and busy rushing for submission.

I suppose what makes me feeling happy academically is doing the composing work. U see, arranging drawings and images and typing some craps can make me in real good mood though... No matter how ugly the drawings and images are. Coz the overall look, the whole page, makes u feel productive.

Ah... Maybe I should work at a publication firm...

Garden Dash

2011-04-23T17:18:00.005+08:00

Here goes another Dash! It's Garden Dash this time!

Anyway, I just downloaded it just now, played a few levels, found it quite fun actually. As long as u are familiar with the time management skills with the other Dashes, u will be able to survive this too, I suppose. :P

Just like the Soap Opera, the only thing difference for this than the other Dashes are, it isn't Flo the one serving and busy around, it's Barb, the African-American business lady who always has low patience in waiting for her food.

Well, it's all about gardening and serving the plants... Like watering, pruning and stuff. It's not easy to play though... Maybe I still need some time to get used to it. :)

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Since I'm so obsessed with the Dash, I checked on Wikipedia one the Dash family. I've always wanted to download all the Dash but I just couldn't find. Until I clicked the linked 'Diner Town' and I found the list...

From some of the residents, there are some who have their own Dash too...

Like the Soap Opera Dash is running by Rosie; Garden Dash ran by Barb... And I can't believe there are Diaper Dash, Parking Dash, Fitness Dash and Doggie Dash!!! This is driving me crazy!!!

I just downloaded the Diaper Dash. OMG. It's super duper cute!!! It's all about babies!

As for the Doggie Dash... I don't know. It doesn't look fun to play. The feeling is just not rite. And the resolution is a bit small, like everything is in cracked? I have no idea how to explain...

It's more or less like the Diaper Dash as it's just placing the pets at those spots they are requiring...

Fitness Dash is something similar with both above too.

It sounds kinda boring... I'm not sure. Maybe I have to play more levels and only can see the exciting part of the game coming...

Among the 4 I just downloaded, I like Parking Dash the most. Why? Coz it's helping ppl to park their cars and it's not easy!

I just tried the 1st level, and I start to like it already. U have to remove the cars parked behind those about to go out! And every owner looks the same! It's one great one here. :D

Those who want the game installer from me, just inform me then... :)

Frustration

2011-04-19T13:32:00.004+08:00

I'm not sure if it's the hot weather, or the lack of sleep, or the coming period that makes me having such bad temper these few days.

Frust 1: After yesterday meeting, I'm forced to change most of my presentation boards. I know there are still about 10 days left until the final submission, but it's like I had put on the best effort before on the pre-final boards, and which I thought it's the best I ever did along this 5 years of studying architecture. And now I have to make them all ugly just because of this stupid CAAEM accreditation. Feels like wanna slam monitor whenever seeing my boards on Photoshop to be edited into ugly ones. Final sem already, no more AA type of presentation boards. F it.

Frust 2: I hardly can get into sleep these few nights. No mosquitoes anymore, but I think it's the tea... But I just love drinking it.. And ended up feeling damn tired during day time. F it.

Frust 3: Annoying roommate. She just loves to talk on the phone real loud. And she has thousands of phone calls every single day!!! No matter I'm awake or sleeping. She will just talk on the phone like nobody's business. What's worse, she's been telling the whole world about the stupid duno-what thingy that grows at the back of her neck for few weeks already! And the door slamming! Every morning whenever she wakes up! Walao eh... Really really temper boiling. Really F it.

The only way to make my mood better is thinking of that something which is gonna happened on next weekend. I'm so can't wait for it... I'm gonna do my very best although there might be nothing to be resulted from it...

OK. I have enough complain today. Back to work.

*Feel damn frust looking at my boards at Photoshop... T.T Wanna slam the monitor*

喝茶的美德

2011-04-13T17:59:00.003+08:00

自从从中国买了红茶回来之后，几乎每天我都泡了一壶的茶在房间里享受。起初是想要快快喝完那些茶包，因为里头有好几十包的。。。

第一次喝时是在我还没搬回房时。后来就没泡了，因为没有电水壶煮热水。

搬回房过后，就用室友的电水壶。再加上买了 brown sugar 后。。。

渐渐的才发现原来喝茶的感觉是那么的高贵。怎样都会觉得像贵妇一样。（有点想了太多了，我知道。）

再加上最近的天气其实也还不错的，偶尔都会有凉风吹进来。一边喝茶一边欣赏大自然。。。（我房间的窗是面对着湖的呢。。。）就好像在参加 elegant garden tea party （不知道怎样翻译这。。。）.

想回去，喝茶其实都是一种消遣和交际的活动。以前的话是办的非常的高贵的。但现代的词语。。。

‘走，我们去喝茶。’

怎么听，都变的不高贵了。

要怎么说呢？Everything has been globalized.

嗨。。。我的华语真差。整头脑都是英语。但是要形容这样的东西一定要用华语比较有感觉啊。。。

Choi Si Won photoshooting for Cosmopolitan magazaine

2011-04-12T12:35:00.007+08:00

It has been awhile I haven't checked on this fella already. Since I've gotten Jang Geun Suk over already (due to his getting-worse haristyle), I've kicked him aside already. :P (Very sorry for being an unfaithful fan. But I'm still listening to his songs anyway...)

All thanx to FuckYeah!ChoiSiWon website which always update Si Won's latest news all the times with extreme close-up pictures, I can have lots of new desktop wallpapers...

Anyway, today I would like to share some pictures I got of Si Won's from that website... These are the pictures taken for the Cosmopolitan April issue magazine.

It's vintage era at the moment. And this is the 1st time I see him dressing in such way for photoshooting. Usually it was just his famous gentleman-style with tux.

This is drooling man...

Since all of the pictures are so beautiful, I've even made wallpapers for my Corby...

How can he be so perfect?

Black Butler - 黑执事

2011-04-11T16:23:00.002+08:00

I've just finished an anime - Black Butler.

It's quite an OK anime though. Well, I'm not an anime person, but it was because that I've run out of materials to watch while I enjoy my meals, I took up anime. Haha.

Everything looks beautiful inside though. But the storyline is a little boring.

But I appreciate the effort of the creator - Era: Victorian British, Venue: London.

Main point is, it's all about the angels, demons, human, and etc.

The thing that makes me appreciating the effort of it is, the integration of the Queen of England with these elements, that includes all the etiquette and protocols of the palace and royalties. Really *Thumb up*.

Since I have limited internet connection here, I dun think I can watch it online. Maybe I will just read the manga online...

Extremely sinful on such rainy day

2011-04-11T16:01:00.006+08:00

I've done something extremely sinful today.

And I'm not gonna say what I've done.

Not until everybody is ready for it.

Maybe after we graduate?

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Anyway, today is just a great day.

Finally, the heavy and dark cumulus are willing to release the water drops down to the earth.

The surface of the earth is way too hot and dirty. It needs to be cleaned.

Architectural Crunch Time

2011-04-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

Now that I've moved back room to do my work, my daily basis is getting disciplined more and more each day.

I woke up around 10am in the morning, after shower will get something to eat while watching some anime series (don't have anymore drama series to watch at the moment), then back to work around 12pm (if not feeling hungry for lunch).

Due to the hot weather these days, I will have to take another noon shower to get myself refreshed. Once in a while will log into Facebook to check on any updates I've missed out the night before. Around 4pm, will take another shower again, well, u won't be able to stand the heat trapped inside the room. The ceiling fan here is in full blast and yet, there is no wind reaching the floor.

After 15 minutes of break with shower and tea, I will work until 6pm where I will enjoy my dinner with the anime series. This will take about 1 hour and back to work. Later around 9pm, I'm taking the last and a long shower so that the body can stand until around 12.30am - bedtime.

It sounds healthy to go to bed around 12.30am and wake up at 10am. In precise, I only manage to get some 5 to 6 hours of sleep. U know why?

It's the hot weather that drives the mosquitoes to come out and hunt for blood. That's another reason why I love raining days so much. No mosquitoes at all! All because of these jets, it is very hard for me to have peaceful rest coz they are not only irritatingly buzzing near my ears, the worst is, they got me so damn itchy all over! I've put on so much of minyak kapak until I feel the burning heat on the skin and they are still flying around! How strong are they?!

But anyway... I'm kinda get used to it already.

My work progress, so far so good.

For the 1st time in the 5 years of studying architecture, I've put on so much effort in presentation boards composition. The 1st board makes me falling in love with what I've composed, the 2nd and 3rd make me love them even more! Just finished the 4th one, loving it too. Haha. Now doing the 5th one, the hardest one I supposed. Will need a lot of tedious work... There are still more to come, but they are not as tedious as those I've done. Really hope that I can finish everything in time. Although it's just a pre-final.

One bad thing about moving back room to do work is that, I have a terribly bad diet. Whenever I'm hungry, even during meal times, I just grab whatever I stored in. I'm so lazy to go out to pack the real meal. Well, I did. But just for lunch. And it's because I have to go out. I know it's unhealthy, but I just don't wanna waste the time to go out...

But anyway, this is how architectural crunch time is like. Sigh...

Soap Opera Dash

2011-04-08T15:48:00.004+08:00

I usually checked on the GameHouse's website for new games to be played. Then I will hunt for the cracked version of the game. And this time, I found another new release from the Dash family - Soap Opera Dash released last year.

As usual, it's a time-management game where u have to plan ur work ahead to get everyone satisfied.

As for the Soap Opera Dash, it's like running a shooting studio with the screenwriter, actors, director, cameraman and etc. But it's more like managing the actors for make-up, dressing, hairstyling and stuff.

What's more! They even allow u to choose the characters from the Dash family into the roles of the movie/drama they are shooting at! And also the actors hairstyle, fashion style and etc for the roles they are taking for the shooting. They are just so cute...

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After I finished playing the Angry Birds, I downloaded Farm Frenzy 3. Haven't finished it yet though. After I discovered this Soap Opera Dash, I'm hooked on it straight. :D

Sensonic M60 Optical Mouse

2011-04-08T15:32:00.003+08:00

I just bought a new mouse yesterday.

It's computer mouse, not a Tom-&-Jerry mouse.

I was expecting to get something RM10 or RM15. But ended up the cheapest ones selling at the store was RM18. There were a few mouses with the cord being cut off just for customers to try out holding, and I found a big one. Not very big, just bigger than those I usually use. And I found it comfortable!

It took me about 15 minutes there trying all sorts of mouses: colourful skins, different sizes, cord and cordless and so on. At the end of the day, I decided to take the one above: Sensonic M60 Optical Mouse.

Seriously, I've never bothered about the brands and models of mouses. Well, I'm not a PC person and I'm not a gamer either. But this one it feels comfy to hold. Since I use my PC nearly 24 hours everyday, I suppose it's time for me to invest a little more just for my comfort. But it's just a RM20 mouse. Haha.

The reason I bought a new mouse was because the scroll my previous mouse was a little not sensitive anymore. Whenever I scrolled a page down, it goes up; when I scrolled the image to be bigger, it goes smaller. It does not only irritates me but making me damn dizzy.

Seriously, I have a feeling that everyone will think that I've gone crazy for blogging on a new mouse I bought. But it feels just nice! Much better than the RM10 one! And what's best about it is, it can be used during presentation where the side of the mouse can be used as buttons for previous and next pages for PowerPoint.

Ah.. I really like my mousey. :D

One Fine Day

2011-04-05T17:29:00.002+08:00

My current favourite nail polish colour - Pastel baby blue. :) The wall of my room is in fact bluish green though... Took this photo the moment I opened my eyes from sleep this morning. :)

Today is a one great day. Coz it has finally rained!!!

The wind wafted into the room is cool, at least got the internal hot air chilled down a little...

And of coz, finally, I'm managed to come online.

Not only that. All of my work progress is up to schedule. This satisfies my life the most at the moment. The image above is a teaser. Love the concept for my presentation boards, although now still working on the composition work now and then.

Our pre-final will be on next Thursday. Wish me luck everyone! :)

Never such a shopaholic

2011-03-27T14:04:00.005+08:00

Seriously, I hadn't had a real shopping this semester. All I know was busy rushing doing amendments on drawings for crits. The only self-indulgence things I could do was relaxing.

I've been wanting to go to Singapore to shop for quite a while already, it's just that I couldn't find the time to go. And there I was, putting everything down to get myself some real indulgence.

As usual, I will go to Bugis Street there to hunt for cheap clothes. And bought 3 shirts in less than half and hour!

Cute isn't it? I really couldn't help myself when I first saw them. But too bad that the last strip singlet there is a bit too tight. I suppose I needa wash it for a few more times to get it loosen up a bit.

This is a keychained mini bag. I'm thinking of separating them up though - the big pearl ball and the tail will be hung on my phone and the bag itself on my bag. :D

And this fella here... I know that I was a bit too impetuous when I bought this. But I couldn't help it! Smells so diamond in pink! Haha. Joking. Well the smell is what I'm looking for, about the same category with my last Gucci Rush 2. :) And it's just SG$ 45!!! :D It's a 2006 released product, 5 years newer than my Gucci Rush 2 though.

Seriously, for fragrances, I only checked on a few brands - Gucci, Burberry, Bebe, DKNY and Versace (for female); Polo and Armani (for men). For the ladies, they aren't that sweet like those of Paris Hilton. Really oh my... I can't take those sweet and fruity essence. As for men, those 2 are the ones I personally find smell masculine. :) I don't read reviews of them online though... but I prefer to go to the shops and smell them myself. Well, it is an individual thingy, isn't it?

My friend was starring at me wide-eyed when I saw I wanted to buy this sunglasses. She has always been a good friend and someone who knows me much better than anybody else (besides my parents). From my shopping bags, she was like, hardly couldn't believe that I could buy so many things in one go. She said it didn't sound like me at all... Oh well, everyone grows through time. I'm still a girl (fine, a lady) who's still growing to learn about herself... Oh ya, the sunglasses was just $5! :P

Besides these above, I also bought a $5 leather belt and a pairs of Rome low flats. :D

I'm just way too happy for being about to release some stress and get myself forgetting about unhappy things.

Shopping indeed is a great cure for ladies... :D

Google Chrome extension - GMail notifier & Twitter notifier

2011-03-24T23:45:00.007+08:00

I've been a GMail user since nearly 10 years ago. It's way too efficient and friendly than Yahoo mail and Hotmail. Seriously. But oh well, I used it 1stly was because it has higher storage capacity though...

Until recently, I found that it's a bit too troublesome to open the browser then click on the GMail shortcut on the taskbar in order to check my mails. And I have this habit of checking it nearly every hour. Just don't know why.

And so I noticed this 'GMail notifier' and tried it out. Indeed it makes mail checking even more efficient! U see, all Facebook activities will send notifications to your email and u will get notified through GMail notifier without going into the browser!

See?

As for Twitter, I only use it just for updating news of my favourite celebrities. And some friends of coz. So it's useful to have a notifier to see what's everybody's up to. :)

Both of them are Google Chrome extensions. Man, now everything is all about Google...

But seriously, Google Chrome is very useful. I didn't know how friendly it is until I started to explore it. It provides all sorts of applications (apps) from calendars, online newspapers, games and all sorts! It's just like browsing iTunes store though. Haha.

And I like this a lot. The feeling of reading newspaper online is never this cool. I wonder if it's because that it's an extension that makes it cool? I mean, rather than going into the main website to read the news like what The Star has there. I'm not a newspaper person, but this New York Times extension makes me wanting to browse through everyday and pick up some news to read though...

Ah well, the famous function is the most viewed webpages. Once u open your Chrome browser u can just click your page directly on it. And changing your own theme for your browser, although Firefox allows u to do so too.

I love Google Chrome...

Feels so weekend

2011-03-23T16:10:00.004+08:00

There's no need words to describe how I feel now. The image above shows everything...

Playing Owl City's songs and with my desk decoration, and being in my room, man... everything feels so relax. Not to mention the good weather too! And I'm sipping hot red tea now... It feels just like weekend!

Everything feels so good... the only thing messy is my black-and-white A0 size drawings with red ink corrections lying flat on my bed. Even though there are amendments to be done, at least I know what I have to do and I know my direction..

Never thought that doing work in room can be this great. But there's a price for it - price for Internet connection, and no air-con...

Ah well, I'm not gonna complain no more. I will have so much more me-myself-and-I time for myself. :)

Self-indulgence to the max

2011-03-23T13:29:00.004+08:00

The faculty has shut down the air-con in my studio. And it's at the highest floor of the building blocks, so it can be like an oven during hot days. And since I'm the only one using it, I might as well being forced to move back to my room.

Seriously, I really dislike doing work in my room. The table is small and I can only check on my A0 size drawings on the floor. Sigh... I've moved in my computer last nite and I noticed that my roommate actually still tossed and turned although I've off the main light. I wonder how is she gonna survive as I only stop working around 2am.

But anyway, in order to cheer myself up and strive for optimistic thinking of working at room, I've decorated my room nicely, actually it's just my desk, so that I have the mood to do my work. As for the Internet connection, I've subscribed the P1 WiMax, and it's so damn fast! Best thing is... I can play my Typing Maniac on Facebook! Yahoo!

I've crit my work and got most of the thing solved on Monday, so yesterday whole day I kept the time for myself doing some personal stuffs -watching drama, relax, and of coz, back to re-adjusting the blog. It's so damn annoying I can't find the perfect template. So at the end of the day I did everything manually. I used the 'Template designer' provided here and used the simplest template then I added on the others by myself. Huh! At least it is a page that cheers my day up whenever I look at it. :)

Ok, I'm gonna get eatable things for lunch now. Gotta save up coz I've spent too much lately already.

Giving up again?!

2011-03-19T22:30:00.004+08:00

Looks like it's time to give up, again.

Something doesn't sound rite.

I really can't find the time to meet and communicate.

Am I late again?

How could the chance just slipped off my hands so easily?

What makes me not deserving a chance for it?

I really don't wanna break down and cry like hell again... Not during the time I'm rushing for my thesis...

Changing new face again

2011-03-16T13:15:00.001+08:00

I'm back with a new face. Kinda sick with the old one without any design... Although I'm not that satisfied with the current one though. There are still somemore works to be done on this, but needa get back to my own thesis work now, so yeah. Will be back for more then. :)

Thrown down from Cloud 9 again

2011-03-14T23:53:00.004+08:00

My plan has all gone down to the drain again.

Just one word spoiled all my mood and plan for everything.

The timing... is always not there for me. This upsets me the most.

Looks like I need give up on what I wish for.

It's just not worth it.

But the heart is always much more stubborn than the brain.

This is sad... Very sad...

Bad luck

2011-03-13T15:51:00.004+08:00

Nothing goes well from the beginning of the semester.

I'm so damn tired of the obstacles.

Although it's a must to through in lives.

There's gotta be something stand in my way for whatever things I wanna do. Either big or small, they are just annoying. Nothing goes well.

Even though I got through every of them, I'm still tired of turning back and fixing the things so that things will get better.

And I've been sick since Chinese New Year. I know it has been so long already. But I just haven't fully recovered. The heat is still here.

Last week, my nasal problem that worried me until I was forced to get medication to stop the flu and running nose. This is because the flu has been too long until it affected my ears. And now, the lung. I have heavy chest now.

And I have greenish nasal mucus until now. For more than one week already. U can imagine how heaty inside now.

For I got a lot of things to do for my thesis, I haven't had enough rest. So many things to be worried about.

Practically, it is possible for me to throw everything away at the moment and have my rest. But the mind doesn't allow me to do so. I can't rest well and will end up worrying.

My 'Law of Attraction' practice has been going for about 2 weeks already and somehow hasn't showed any effects. I suppose I really have to mean it when I write whatever I write. But with my current condition, no matter how positive thinking I am, I'm still feeling tired.

When am I gonna have all these end?

My Pig Rabbit!!!

2011-03-08T16:28:00.002+08:00

My Pig Rabbit is finally here! I'm so happy!

Although Mom refuses to send it to me here, I'm still very happy that it is bigger than I expected! OMG... It's super duper cute!

The above image was taken by my sister back at home. She's using the same phone as I am, the pink Samsung Corby, just that different model. Hers is without the WiFi version. And there she took the pic with the Pig Rabbit with her phone on the mirror so that I can see the size of it. :)

Mom was complaining how ugly and sinful it is to cut a rabbit's nose and replaced with a pig's one. But Dad said it's very cute. Haha.

And the air-con here in my studio is finally fixed!

Although I didn't sleep very well these few days, well, I'm still very sick currently, I'm very happy today. The weather is nice, I had my McD lunch, my Pig Rabbit is here, the air con is done... Ah... What a find day.

Alrite now, I have to get back to work then. I have so much to do...

Angry Birds

2011-03-05T19:49:00.006+08:00

Everybody has been talking hotly about the Angry Birds, one of the games for the Androids and iPhone. And everyone has been talking how addictive it is. I don't believe it until I try it myself.

It is extremely addictive.

I don't have my iPod Touch with me or having any Androids. I downloaded the PC version of it. And thanx to my CPU which couldn't be started all of the sudden, that cost me RM200 just to change it a new motherboard, I've a new chipset of integrated graphic card and there I can play the game finally.

It's just a simple and kinda stupid game - putting a bunch of birds (which I actually find that they look more like chickens than birds...) on a slingshot and shoot them away to blast off the green, stupid looking pigs.

Well, the story is like this... There are 3 ~~chickens~~ birds (a yellow, red and blue ones), a happy family, welcoming their new born eggs, waiting for them to hatch. Then suddenly they got distracted and the eggs were being stolen by the pigs for meals! And this got the birds real mad, looking for ways (actually just blasting the pigs off) to get the eggs back.

And here's the trailer of the game. :)

See? U just pull the slingshot and blast the birds away to cause destruction on the whatever structure the pigs are at to blast the pigs off.

And seriously, I think it's nicer to play the game in PC than in the Androids or iPhone. iPad would be the best! And screen would not be too small and not too big too. Ah... How I wish I can have one now.

And so, I've googled the game up online. Look what I've found:

Haha. I know it's crazy, but I find it cute though. There are even dolls selling for each of the birds (And they look just like chickens, really)! So far I'm still at the first levels, which consisted of 25 sub-levels, I think. So, so far I've only seen the red, blue and yellow birds. And I love the yellow one the most! OMG... it is f*cking cute and funny. Imagine the birds are being blasted too high up and even can adding speeds on it. It's just like flying faaarrrrr over the target. Haha. I can't helping laughing whenever there are these yellow birds in the levels.

Anyway, there are also other versions of the game released:

Halloween version

Christmas version

Valentine's version!

Will search for the PC version of these games after I've settled my crits. :P

Anyway, I also find this useful for avatar or icons. The blue one is good for Twitter though! :P

For those who want to try and see how addictive it is, HERE is the link for the installer. HOWEVER... There's one problem. After u've installed it, there will be errors saying ' Texture is too large: 2048 X 2048, maximum supported size: 1024 X 1024'. I've faced the same problems before I changed my motherboard, so I've looked up forums and suggested solutions to it. And I find this website, where there are several suggestions which u can refer too.

Enjoy the game and blast all the green stupid-faced pigs away! :)

Magic one person does

2011-03-03T17:12:00.003+08:00

I can't believe just one person can do such magic - just thinking about him or being reminded of , no matter how tired or lazy I am, I will get motivated instantly. Either good or bad, it just works, u know?

I miss the feeling I felt 2 years ago. No expectations and smiled broadly whenever my phone rang or my messenger notified.

I know that they won't come back anymore. Not at the moment.

Although deep down inside, they will come back, if I put down my pride and put some effort to gain it.

I'm scared, u know? It happened once already.

勇气

2011-03-02T00:05:00.003+08:00

我只需要那一点点的勇气。就那么的一点点。。。

不可以再面对他时缩着头了。。。

有谁可以给我那勇气？

今天我已经写了 4 次的 'I'm confident.' 了。。。（我知道，今天只是第一天罢了，等一下临睡前会再写多一页。）

但怎么办？一看到他就手忙脚乱，就这样慌了起来。如果这样下去，写了几千遍的 'I'm confident.' 也做不起任何效果啦。。。

时间不多了。。。我不想再让机会就那么的溜走。

怎么办啦。。。 ;(

Eat Pray Love

2011-02-28T22:32:00.004+08:00

I've saved this movie for quite sometime after I downloaded it. I just kept it to the last as I had a feeling that it's gonna be a lovey dovey movie. And to be honest, I dislike to watch lovey dovey movie alone at the moment.

Until one day, I've ran out of movies and drama episodes for my lunch and dinner hours.

I've divided the movie into 3 parts as I found myself couldn't finish the movie in one go. The front part was a bit uninteresting. And whenever the brain kept telling that Julia Roberts is gonna meet a cute guy and they're gonna have lovey dovey scenes, I would just start feeling frustrated.

Until I reached to the middle part of the movie when I noticed some meaningful phrases which I found inspiring.

"He's in a room with a naked girl. He's won a lottery."

"Here this is what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna finish this pizza, we're gonna go watch a soccer game. And tomorrow we'll go out for a little date, and buy ourselves some bigger jeans."

"What did I look like when I'm happy?"

"To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life."

"Listen, my darling, balance, is not letting anybody to love you less than you love yourself."

Anyway, the movie, like what the title has there, is divided into 3 parts (not the 3 part I divided myself) - Eat Pray Love. The 'eating' part is where Liz started her traveling to Italy to enjoy eating. The 'praying' part is where she continued her journey to India for her guru and did her praying and stuff. And for the 'love' part, that's where she had finally found her love in Bali.

In overall, the movie is a story telling how Liz found and understood herself, searching for the balance in her life. Of coz, anybody would love to do that too, if only u have enough $$ to travel all those places.

But anyway, it is an inspiring movie, although it is kinda boring at the beginning part of the movie.

And it makes me start to like the adult life and having the curiousity towards life and the world. It makes me can't wait to graduate soon to explore the larger-than-life world.

Don't you think so?

UK Farm in Johor

2011-02-28T17:53:00.008+08:00

Despite being so busy for work, we still managed to squeeze out some time for our final-year trip.

And this time, we went to the UK Farm.

Well, it's a farm - seeing and feeding goats, sheep, ostrich... And we stayed there overnight. It was great being in the mid of a flock of sheep. I actually found that I like the way they talk though... 'Meh-eh-eh-eh... Meh-eh-eh-eh'. The fun thing hearing them is, there are different tones and pitch! They were just adorable.

It was just 2 days there, and the trip seemed just like one week to us. I supposed we've done a lot of things...

Well, the best thing from this trip is, I've learnt 2 news things - Mahjong and Archery! I didn't know how to play Mahjong and since there was one set and there were them who know how to play, so I joined in to learn then. It was a nice game though. Will practice it more often online. :P

And as for archery, well, it is also something that I would not have thought that I gave a try on. First thing is, it's hell expensive. Secondly, I never know that it's so addictive! The best thing is, I've got 4 strikes right at the yellow spot in a row! How lucky was that! And well, at least, there's something in me that can got me to play - I have stable hold on the bow. :) Man, can't wait to have another try next time!

Jimmy's note while he was the narrator

We stayed at the dormitory of UK Farm, so whole bunch of us sleep together. And we took the chance to play the 'bloody night' game again. It was hell crazy.

And the next day after we checked out from the farm, we walked around the town of Kluang.

Anyway, that's all for now. I wanna go back to have some nap 1st. Didn't sleep well last nite.

Law of Attraction

2011-02-28T11:21:00.005+08:00

I never believe in karma thingy, not to mention anything about the Law of Attraction. Until I heard some discussions from San and the others. I looked it up and read some articles online, and find that it is something I might need in life.

U see, for those who know me, I'm a very negative person. The negative forces drive people away from me. And I think besides needing those positive to have a healthy life psychologically, I have to give out some positive energy too.

According to stress.about.com, this is how Law of Attraction works:

You create your own reality. What you focus on, what you emote about, is what you draw into your life. What you believe will happen in your life is what does happen. This isn't as simple as it seems, however, or everyone would have the lives what they want naturally. For example, people who are in debt and continually tell themselves, "I need more money," don't find more money, they continue to "need more money" because that is the reality that they create.

Well, I was once told by a friend that we shouldn't watch TV doing something else while having our meals. It's because, no matter how healthy our meal is, our brain is busy focusing on whatever we are watching at, and not sending signals to other parts of the body to absorb the nutrients from the food we eat. So I think it's something similar.

So how can I use it then?

From what I read about 'Using the Law of Attraction to create a better life', it teaches how to apply the Law of Attraction in life. And I've figured out a way that I can practice to give it a try - by using the Law of Attraction to absorb and give out the positive energy to my surrounding.

Here's how I'm gonna do it: I will write down all those positive phrases like 'I'm peaceful', 'I'm thinking out of the box' and etc, everyday, so that I will be reminded of all these positive characteristics, so that unconsciously I will practice them.

Well, it says that we create our own reality. Whatever we think and we emote on, it will come true. That means, whatever life we want it to be, we should keep thinking and focusing on it, then it will be realized like what we want it to be.

One of the rules by practicing this is, the wordings and terms used have to be in positive tones instead of the opposite (if u want to be more positive like me). For example, it is better to use 'I'm stress free' instead of 'I don't want to feel stress'. U see how things work here?

Besides, I personally think that it requires disciplinary to practice this. Well, it is easy to practice, but u must have the discipline to carry it and do it everyday, so that u will be reminded to be positive. I don't think it will work if we do it only when we wanna do it. It's just like taking the antibiotics. It won't work if we stop taking it halfway. It must be continuous.

Anyway, I hope it works... Coz I needa have a slight change in my life. I'm too negative already.

I will start the writing today, after I crit. Coz I haven't drafted out what I should write...

Present Past Future

2011-02-23T22:45:00.003+08:00

I have no idea if this is the life it supposes to be.

U see, for the thesis life that I know of, it's like, free everyday so that we can do our work in relax mode (although sometimes will get dragged too much). But now, ever since I arrived from CNY, my head is so full of chores and works to be done. And trips too!

But recalling back of what it has in 'Eat Pray Love', we shouldn't be afraid to be out of the norm once in a while...

And what's worse: Time flies without me realizing it. It's Wednesday already.

I have no idea how, but I really hope that I can stop the time so that I can have some space to breathe and think out of the box for a moment. And the song 'Stop' from Spice Girls suits just nice for what I feel now.

Anyway... I can feel stress comes crawling up to meet me already. Finally, the conscious stress.

Coz I find that I sleep better these few days. At least not much of dreams. Finally I have some deep sleep. At least the brain can have some rest.

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I spent quite a while in the afternoon to dig up all those high school hits (my high school time) like songs from 5ive, Code Red, O-Town, LFO, C21... Oh man, I just love those songs!

Maybe some of u have no idea who they are.

Like 5ive, who were famous for their 'When the lights go out' and 'Slam dunk da funk';

Code Red (the least famous among the bands I mentioned): 'What good is a heart';

O-Town, who were famous for their 'Liquid Dreams' but I personally love their 'We fit together';

LFO who were famous for their 'Girl on TV' featuring Jennifer Love Hewitt and cute 'Every other time';

C21, a Danish trio famous for their 'One Night in Bangkok' and 'She Cries'.

Man... It feels so good.

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Watching those video clips of the songs I downloaded, suddenly I have a feeling that it feels good to be an adult. Coz matured and dare enough to go out of the circle to explore the world. It's not just exploring places, but also in a lot of things. Including socially.

Now I can't wait to graduate to get myself out of the place called 'school'. I wanna go out to explore and get to know more people. Who knows I might be ended up just like Julia Roberts in 'Eat Pray Love'. Haha. I know I've thought too much.

And sudden adrenaline made me Google up 'Work and Travel in Korea' right after that thought. And I found one - teaching English in Korea. Goodie. I've been wanting to go Korea so much. And they even offer round trip of flight tickets with quite high salary. Just teaching English. And instantly I read up the requirements and stuff and sent an email for some questions.

There. I've taken the first step of my possible future.

But thinking about it, there will be some excuses for making me staying at the norm, staying on the same ground until further notice. Well, there's always someone whom I'm staying for -

If I still fail again, then it will be the time I'll spread my wings and exploring the world.

If I succeed, I will stay. For the rest of my life. Until things fail.

RIP grandma

2011-02-09T16:33:00.004+08:00

My family and I were supposed to go the the Green Hill temple this morning. And I wasn't planned to go last night as I had my period just started.

Who knows, when I was about to tell Dad that I didn't wanna go before 8am, Dad told me that Grandma passed away this morning.

Just yesterday Mom still told us from the call she made, that Grandma was better than few days ago after she was admitted to the hospital.

And today she took off like that.

The next thing I know, without got our faces cleaned, we got ourselves in front of the computer, busy checking for instance flight tickets back Limbang. And been busy for one whole morning just for that.

And not to mention being operators answering calls from relatives about the shocking news.

Poor Dad. He has been busy settling our stuffs until now.

And Mom... Sigh. I cannot imagine how many more tears she's gonna use to wash her face once she arrived Limbang later with uncle. While the rest of us here will head to Limbang early tomoro morning with uncle's family.

This will be my very 1st funeral to be attended.

And also the very last Chinese New Year we're gonna celebrate with Grandma. At least, for the last time.

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Mom complained another aunt's family shouldn't be visiting Grandma they all the other day as on Aunt's side of family there already had someone passed away. And the aunt in Singapore for not visiting Grandma last year after few years of CNY visiting.

Dad, although agreed with her thinking, only managed to tell her that we can't do much too. What had happened has happened.

And Uncle... Whom has given the most effort, blaming himself for not doing enough for Grandma.

And us kids, we only always are reminded how annoyed and bad-tempered Grandma used to be. My sisters and I are still ok, Adrian and Joyce aren't close with her at all.

As for me, the only thing I cannot stand is her smoking habit. Extremely critical. The rest, I never mind at all. I even stayed with her chat with her all the time whenever she was here in Kuching.

But thinking back, some guilts shocked me at the moment I heard Dad told me that she has gone - I've never really serve her as a granddaughter. I did, but not as much as those of her grandsons back in Limbang.

And during dinner the other day, me and my family were still discussing about Grandma's health and her bad temper. I even warned Mom jokingly not to be like Grandma when she's old.

I know that deep inside Mom won't be like her.

Sigh. I suppose it's some mixed feelings inside of me now.

This is the first time I feel the lost.

外婆，一路好走.

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Besides Mom and Uncle, we all will be back in Kuching on the 12th. Them both will only be back after one week. So by the time Mom back in Kuching, I've already back in JB already. Sigh... Everything just came too sudden.

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I haven't prepared for anything for tomoro.

I'm not talking about packing.

I'm talking about emotions, and every situation I will be facing tomoro.

Looks like I have to prepare a lot of packs of tissue.

You see, I can even get touched and cried from listening to stories from radio.

*Big sigh*

轻视新年的后果

2011-02-08T18:06:00.002+08:00

为什么我那么说呢？

新年本来就是让我们做和享受些吉利的事。

我呢？天天待在家里。借口：懒惰。

说实在的，我是真的很懒惰要出门。朋友是有，就是那么的懒惰。

也没做任何善事或者是吉祥的事.

结果呢?每样东西都那么的不顺利. 想回去,说真的,运气全都给我赶完了-

新年前,白白的 RM120 都给我弄丢了.

新年时,重要的东西都给我搞糊涂了.就那样白白浪费了一个多星期的时间.不知道该如何是好...

新年后呢? 我的运气会不会好点些?

天啊,要怎么转运呢?

是时候做点东西来补回了.希望不会太迟.
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偶尔真的很讨厌那么没用的自己.

又心急,爱抱怨,脾气又暴躁.

怪不得什么都做不好,什么都那么的不顺利.

我,真是活该的.

CNY 2011

2011-02-06T13:41:00.006+08:00

Just some more shots I took at home the other days.

When I posted them in Facebook, I just noticed that I hadn't taken any human shots. And it's just very similar to what I feel now. With a little bit of confusion - with more human companion or wanting it to be less? Or just that particular person?

Fireworks during New Year Eve

Mom's lion tissue box.

Can spot where am I? :P

This is what we gambled during CNY (for Ang family, as we're not good in gambling)

And at the end of the day, I lost it all. Just 20 piece of 10 cents :P

Ok, that's all for today. I've played and rest and sleep enough. Time to get my ass back to work... Sigh.

Pre-CNY 2011

2011-02-06T11:20:00.005+08:00

(4 days ago)

Today I didn't do much though... Just did some vacuum and mopping works for the upper stairs then hang around here and there. Just have no idea why so sleepy today.

When I was young, I supposed to be very excited as tomoro will be the big day! To be honest, there isn't anything much though... It's just another day for me to spend with my family. Haha.

(Today)

My fav drinks during CNY. :D

It's the 4th day of CNY. And I'm just so lazy. I've been very lazy since the very 1st day of CNY. Just have no idea why. I wasn't even busy for anything else at the moment, and I'm just feeling extremely sleepy. It's gotta be something I've eaten.

Anyway, this post is just to share with u some shots I took at home - Dad's artworks.

Nightime - Dad's pond side

My fav shot

Crystal clear colour

And sis discovered it to be a new function - Fishspa

Class 6 Red of '98

2011-02-06T11:16:00.000+08:00

(020211 - Wednesday)

During my primary school time, when we reached primary 4, we were to be chosen to be in different class according to our grades. And I was chosen to be in the best class. And that time, every class was labeled with colours - Red the best; White 2nd, Yellow 3rd and Blue the last. For primary 1 to 3 students, there wasn't any grading for it, only starting from primary 4. And there we stayed together until primary 6. And there I got to know these gang of friends.

After 13 years, we traveled back to the land where everything was small, and where we all our childhood together. Yes, to our classroom where we found everything was small to us.

We had decided to go back to take photos of us after 13 years. Been planned for quite a few months already, and finally it was done. Too bad only about 15 of us showed up coz others weren't around. But it was great. The feeling, the place, the friends - everything was just perfect.

Edmund the fella who's so happy being back in Kuching

Us sitting at our own desks

And there we hung around at our primary 6 classroom (as it was the only place we were allowed to visit coz it's public already and only the guards and some staffs there) for about an hour plus taking pics of all kinds. It was fun, talking about what we did, what had happened, who was being swift place, who wasn't here... Ah... How I miss those times. And being so naive and got nothing to worry about.

At the same time too, we noticed the evolution of education - whiteboard and projector. Teachers nowadays use whiteboard markers to write on the white board while during the old times, they used chalks on blackboard; teachers nowadays use projector to show slides while during the old times, there was nothing! Everything was copied on the blackboard manually! And we remembered that the wall of the classroom was made of timber, and it is concrete wall now.

And this fella here, I used to sit next to him temporary. I remember there was once I was playing with the eraser and the Maths teacher caught it. But she thought that it was him playing (well he was well-known as the naughty one), and he got scolded badly. To be honest, I hadn't got the chance to apologize to him. And he didn't get mad at me too. Until that day we finally met up, I told him about it. Haha. And we both ended up laughing at each other.

Ah, our left out boy. Actually MJ was with us until Primary 3, until he ran to another school.

The Bong's family. :)

And he's the only one that fits the class the most. :)

Ah Pui jalan ke kiri...

Ah Teng jalan ke kanan... :D

That's the only part of the school we could visit. But it's already enough for us. :) Thanx to Ah Pui who organized this for us.

Back home for CNY

2011-02-01T15:26:00.005+08:00

I came back on the 26th. I supposed I was the earliest among the friends here in Kuching to arrived at our hometown for the celebration of CNY. Ah well, among them all, I'm the only one left still schooling. The others already got themselves in the Working Society.

I've been rushing for my thesis work ever since I arrived home. It's all ended up useless though. Well, it's a long story. But anyway, it's good too, coz at least the rest of the stuffs will come easier. I hope. The bad - didn't help out much at home. Sigh...

Vivien Gan!

So until yesterday, the day I've been so looking forward to finally arrived - gathering with my old buddies. What's best is, Vivien is finally here in Kuching for her CNY! And Edmund for his 2nd one after so many years!

Now let me share a bit about Vivien here ~~hope she doesn't mind, and knowing the fact that she might not read this post :P~~. She's a girl I know since Primary 4. But to be honest, I can't recall how we had become so closed though... Same interest, maybe? Well yeah, we were (I still am) big fans of the BSB and we talked about them all the time. And I remember she used to have lunch at my place before we went to school together. That time was like, having another sister whom I could share everything with ~~despite the fact that I already have 2 younger sisters here, but it's just different, u know?~~ . And to be honest, it's because she's the only child in the family while parents work all the time, she's much more independent than I am.

Our friendship got loosened up after we came to secondary school, different classes I supposed. Then she went off to Australia after Form 5. And I don't see her since then. And barely had any contact with her though, coz she doesn't go online in messenger. And until today, she's finally back. :)

Anyway, the whole bunch of us went out to have a dinner, mostly friends I know since primary school. And it was hell great. What's best was sleepover at Vivien's place after dinner!

It was a girls' night out - pillow talk night where Vivien questioned everyone about our love lives and stuffs. Haha. Actually she's home alone, and we still had to meet up early in the morning today for the photo-shooting at our primary school. But we ended up went to bed around 2am. Will post up the pics at the next post.

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It's another CNY that means I'm another year older again. When I saw Edmund last nite, I was like, 'Damn, it was exactly last year that he came back. And it has been one year flown away already!'

So one year just flew off like that. Great.

And I'm 25 already.

A full grown adult who is still acting like a child.

But I'm happy with my own progress though.

At least I'm putting effort to get something myself. I know, for the 1st time, u see?

I'm working on it.

Coz I know that I cannot lose it again.

幸福

2011-01-24T12:22:00.002+08:00

幸福，Happiness, Bahagia, 행복...

昨晚，非常的幸福。

谢谢你。

Rushing for travelings

2011-01-21T17:33:00.004+08:00

What's so fun about Architecture is, u get to travel a lot.

And everyone loves traveling.

IF...

Only u have enough $$. Ain't I rite?

Being an East M'sian and studying in the West, I have to travel back forth back home and campus. That, already spent hell lot of $$. :S I remember there was once I had to rush back home for one night just to sign a paper. All my friends said that I'm a hell big businessman. XD

And to be honest, I dislike taking flights. Coz I can't sleep well. I hate the seats though. Although it's just an hour flight back Kuching from JB, I would need some rest during traveling coz usually I would be ended up busy rushing for stuff until the last few minutes before I departed. And I would be hell exhausted. The worse is having babies on flight. OMG... They always cry for the whole flight...

Instead, I like traveling in buses. Coz I can push down the back of the seat until it's nearly horizontal for me to have a good nap. :D But some people ever told me off right on the face that I'm just being showing off as they hadn't got a chance to take a flight yet. I never meant anything, seriously. I just dislike taking flights and like taking bus rides. What's so cool about taking flights?

Anyway, I have real tight schedule ahead:

Tomoro (Saturday) - KL for site analysis

Sunday - Singapore for meeting friends and taking stuff from aunt

Wednesday - Back Kuching for CNY

(With piles of works to be rushed within that 2 weeks of break at home; hope that I can finish them off)

I'm even busier than Super Junior. :S

Super Show 3 Malaysia

2011-01-19T17:13:00.003+08:00

The last time Super Junior here in Malaysia was in March last year. And they are coming again this coming mid of March!

Finally the concert is confirmed - to be held on 19th March at Stadium Bukit Jalil.

And I'm so going for it! (No matter how broke I am now)

I read from a lot of blog posts about their last concert, everything came out AWESOME! Ah well, these boys are famous for their entertaining skills... Look at their performances in live shows and being hosts, they are as naughty as monkeys jumping around!

I don't care. It is a must go!

Take a look at this. This is 'Disco Drive' during Super Show 2 in Japan. See how fun it is to see them live!

Sorry sorry!

It's you

I heard that the seating and stage plan for SS3 will the be same like the SS2. If it's so, according to the seating plan for Super Show 2, there were 3 types of seating: RM138, RM238 and RM458. I wanted to take the most expensive one, taking the 'Rockpit', but I'm still not sure about the decision, coz 1stly, it's expensive. RM458 man!!! And being at Rockpit, well, one best thing is can touch them easily, and can see them clearly, but might not be able to see the overall image... And might be get blocked by those recording using cameras and handphones. Hm...

So now I'm google-ing up see if I can check up any photo taken from the RM238 seatings. If it's clear and worthy enough, I might as well just go for that.

Anyway, looking at so many pictures taken in the concert, I can see how tiny I am to them. Well, all I can say is, they are just another entertainer to me...

Mom was complaining that the ticket is too expensive (I was telling her I wanted to take the RM458), but... comparing to other solo artists and singers, the pricing is about the same too... But I watching for 10 cute boys at the same time!!! Isn't that it's 10 times worthier?

I don't care.

Selling of the tickets starts next week. I hope I can grab some nice seat.

I wanna see my boys!

Thesis acknowledgement

2011-01-18T14:58:00.004+08:00

I know it is a bit too early, but I have so many people to thank for my thesis.

Firstly is Dr. Rashid for his guidance and for being understanding. Best guide ever.

Next I would like to thank Shaun, a friend and journalist who is currently working at The Star, for providing so much information about the organization as references for my thesis.

I also would like to thank Bruce, a senior who brought me to check on the site for my design, and providing so much information about the site.

To MJ, LeePing and Joanne, 3 old friends who current stay in KL, not only providing information but also accommodation for me while I was there checking for my site.

There are loves and pressures from friends here too, pushing me to do my work whenever I'm down and lazy. U know who u r. :)

And last but not least, Mom and Dad for being so supportive and endless loves and strengths they always give.

I'm feeling so thankful to have these wonderful people around me.

More complains...

2011-01-12T21:15:00.004+08:00

It's just the 3rd day of the semester (actually this is the 2nd week, just that I was at China for the 1st one) and I start to feel extremely very tired.

I supposed it was the trip. And I haven't gotten any proper rest from the trip. Coz at the moment I arrived the campus, I started to worry about my work, and also for today's presentation.

Actually, maybe our supervisors knew that we didn't do anything during the break, so told us there was no need to have any presentation for today. And the head of the unit just gave us some briefing.

And hell. The briefing makes us feel even worse than presenting craps and got bombed!

We're gonna have a real tight schedule to make sure our work is in par just for the LAM accreditation.

Sigh...

Due to that, I have to finalize the site for my thesis by Monday! Shit man... I don't have a clue about KL and Selangor. How am I to shit a site out?

And hell... And I still have a lot of things to do!

My room is in hell messy mode. I still haven't had the time to finish unpack the winter luggage. With the rainy weather, my clothes are hung there for few days already, still haven't got any drop of water dried up...

And some other tiny stuffs to be done, like settling down of studio, groceries, and some personal stuff to settle...

Argh....

It's just driving me crazy for I can't do things my own way and being pushed around like that just to catch up with deadlines!

What's worse, I'm having flu and sorethroat.

Anyway, just wanna letting out some anger.

Frust

2011-01-11T21:38:00.004+08:00

I've thought about what had happened during the break.

I know that it's one unforgivable mistake.

Which I don't feel like wanting to explain myself face-to-face anymore.

Of coz apologizing is the best solution. But that doesn't mean that the mistake will be forgiven.

I've foreseen that. So I give up.

U r good people. And it was that 2 noisy people I was scolding at. It wasn't the whole gang. It wasn't the quiet people. More hint? They r those not permanent here.

But I suppose that 2 noisy people didn't know that I was pointing at them. Coz they thought that I was referring to the whole gang.

But I'm sure even if it's just the 2 of them, u will stand out defensing them too. So yeah, it's just like pointing at the whole gang too.

U thot that I'm blind and stupid enough not to notice whatever u've posted there?

Ah well, I deserved that, I suppose.

Choi Si Won is more handsome than Jang Geun Seok?!

2011-01-10T11:23:00.004+08:00

This is such a shocking news.

Although I like them both, I still thought Jang Geun Seok would win over Choi Si Won.

As the most handsome male star born in the year of rabbit.

(Actually Choi Si Won was born in the year of tiger, just that he was registered late.)

With the start of the year of the rabbit, there is a wind of change blowing in the entertainment industry. Male stars born in 1987 are having remarkable careers in all fields of entertainment from TV, gayo to movies.

Male stars born in the year of rabbit including Lee Minho, Lee Seunggi, Jang Geun Suk, Choi Siwon, Joowon and TOP have especially mesmerized Korean women with their good looks and unique charms. Is it because people born in the year of rabbit have abundance of sensibility and artistic talents? They are fearlessly working in various fields including acting and singing.

Because 2011 is the year of rabbit, we ranked from number one to three on the handsome male stars born in the year of rabbit who will receive the spotlight this year. The ranking was completed with the help of JK Plastic Surgery which has specialty plastic surgeons.

Out of all the prominent handsome male stars born in the year of the rabbit, surgeons chose Super Junior’s member Choi Siwon as the handsomest.

He debuted in 2005 as a part of idol group Super Junior and enjoyed overwhelming popularity with the ht songs like Sorry Sorry and Miinah. He’s currently solidifying his status as an actor by appearing in SBS drama Oh! My Lady and Athena: Goddess of War.

Chief surgeon of JK Plastic Surgery Kwon Soonhong said, “His cool eyes, high nose and lips match well together with his small face. He has a western look and his face has manly characteristics yet also has soft contours.”

Also,Chief Surgeon Paik Hyewon said, “Choi Siwon has sharp eyes. But his eyes are big and he has fat under his eyes that he looks playful.

*Some parts of the article were omitted.

Source: BNT News
Translated by Minnie @ SUJUISM.BLOGSPOT.COM

Actually there is some rankings made in the original piece of the article: 1st - Choi Si Won; 2nd - Lee Min Ho; 3rd - Jang Geun Seok. But I can't understand the part for Jang Geun Seok. Even if it's google-translated, the text still seem weird.

But thinking about it, both Choi Si Won and Jang Geun Seok are handsome to me. With different characteristic - SiWon is the gentleman type of handsome; Jang Geun Seok is the cute & baby-faced type of handsome, rite?

Ah well... who cares... As long as they are professional and handsome. Still love them to bits. :P

Back to the hot & humid

2011-01-09T21:42:00.003+08:00

I just reached my hostel room this morning around 11.30am from LCCT.

And there I quickly unpacked and tidied my room to prepare myself getting back to my work.

I've dragged too much. The 1st crit will be on this Wednesday! And I did NOTHING!

The trip to China, I will update it soon.

How was it? The only thing I can say here 1stly is: Don't know to laugh or to cry thinking about it.

Anyway, I have to prepare some craps for tomorrow. Ciao!

Pig Rabbit - You're Beautiful

2010-12-29T00:23:00.005+08:00

Although it has been awhile after I watched 'You're Beautiful', I still can't forget the 'pig rabbit' doll made by Hwang Tae Kyung (Jang Geun Suk), in the drama. Thinking that the company surely will produce the drama merchandise, they won't leave out this 'pig rabbit'. :)

Anyway, since I'm looking for something to be hung on my Corby, I looked up online to see if I can buy something cheap to pretty up Ms. Pinky Corby or not.

And it took me quite a while to check around, just in case I bought the fake one. Finally I decided to buy it down, found in eBay - a 'pig rabbit'. And the seller told me that it takes 2 - 4 weeks to arrive! Sigh.

Anyway, a little recap of the story of this 돼지토끼 (read as dwae-ji-tto-ggi), where 돼지 means pig and 토끼 means rabbit:

Hwang Tae Kyung called Go Mi Nam this nickname due to her innocent expression she always wore on her face, and due to the the pig-nose thingy she always did whenever she was blushing, Hwang Tae Kyung called her the 'pig rabbit'. It should be something like piggy rabbit. Sound better, aye? :)

So one day, Hwang Tae Kyung wanted to give Go Mi Nam a necklace as a gift, but had no idea how to give her, so he made a pig-rabbit doll and hung the necklace on it. How he made that doll...

Firstly he went to a room full of his gifts from fans, then among all the gifts, he chose a pig doll and a rabbit doll. And he did operation on them. =.=

And here we have the pig rabbit done! :)

Hwang Yae Kyung cut off the nose of the pig and put it on the rabbit's face. =.=

So here it is, this is what I'm waiting for. Can't wait to see it! :)

没用的我

2010-12-26T23:44:00.003+08:00

看来我一直以来都在逃避着一个事实：放了手后，对我来说，还不是一种个人进展。

还以为放手后是件好事。

是我自己不敢对那段感情负起份责任吧。。。

不瞒说，偶尔会在想，如果那时一开始就坚持下去，那该多好。。。

免得现在的我，每天都在想：今天，你在做什么？等下，你想去哪里？

每一次想起你单独离开的背影，那一个画面，心都会很酸。不知几时才会再让我陪在你身边。

其实，距离，以现在来说，都不成问题。就是没那勇气。连一句 ‘Hey there, how's things going lately?' 都不敢 send. 就那么的一按罢了。。。

每天就是在那一个角落做白日梦，梦想着我们在一起的画面。

为什么我就是那么的没用？

Merry X'mas 2010!

2010-12-25T16:38:00.003+08:00

Merry X'mas everybody!

It's quite a quiet christmas for me here, as all my friends are working in Singapore. So I just stayed at home, doing nothing much.

My family and I are not Christians, so we don't celebrate X'mas basically. Usually just hanging out with friends.

Anyway, last night we had BBQ at home with uncle and his family. Just a small eating out, then chit-chatting until 11.30pm. Then just now had a visiting an aunt's place. That's it.

5 more days to go before I leave Kuching. Kinda worry about the progress of my thesis though... just that I'm too lazy to move a thing. The heart keeps on complaining that I should be work-free for this final holiday, but another part of me keeps rushing. Sigh... I also duno how to deal with that.

Anyway, have a blessed Christmas everybody! :)

Demi Lovato in Camp Rock 2

2010-12-24T15:28:00.003+08:00

I just watched 'Camp Rock 2'. And I found that this Demi Lovato has such great voice! Wow!

I always read news about her (being as one of those from Disney) in the rehab and I actually had no intention to know who she really was.

Until after I watched the 'Camp Rock 2'. Her voice is so damn powerful!

I duno why but this video was being slipped. But anyway, just enjoy the song. :)

This song is one of my favourite in the movie, entitled 'Different summer'. A very sweet song. :)

Different Summer :

We're like a melody with no words

Until we figure it out

We sing

La, la, la, la, la, la

I know it's simple, yeah
But it's worked right up 'til now
Cause, up 'til now, yeah

Every day's been like a dream world,
oh, but now you're not just in my head
oh, no

Will we remember different summers?
It's like tossing your heart to see where it lands
Heads is easy
Tails is harder to plan
If we're starting all over again and again and again

Oh, You know that I can't help but wonder
What's gonna happen next.
I'm a little curious, oh yeah
Every star that I stood under,
When you were under it too
Did you ever think about us?

I hope you did 'cause I can tell you
That's something I'll never forget
I won't forget

If we remember different summers
It's like tossing your heart to see where it lands
Heads is easy
Tails is harder to plan
If we're starting all over again

Only friends
Just beginning
But I hope that we find it again
So we can go from here

Will we remember different summers?
It's like tossing your heart to see where it lands
Heads is easy
Tails is harder to plan
If we're starting all over again oh-oh
Again and again and again and again
Again and again and again
Will we remember different summers?

This song also nice. It's called 'Wouldn't change a thing'. It has nice lyrics.

Wouldn't Change A Thing Lyrics

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say,
His mind is somewhere far away,
And I don't know how to get there,
It's like,
(She's way too serious)
All he wants is to chill out,
(She's always in a rush)
He makes me wanna pull all my hair out,
(And interrupting)
Like he doesn't even care,
(Like she doesn't even care)

You,
me
We're face to face
But we don't see eye to eye
Like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)

But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

She's always trying to save the day
Just wanna let my music play
She's all or nothing
But my feelings never change
(Why, do you try to read my mind?)
I try to read her mind
(It's not good to psychoanalyze)
She tries to pick a fight
To get attention
That's what all of my friends say
(That's what all of my friends say)

You,
Me
We're face to face
But we don't see eye to eye
Like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)

http://www.elyricsworld.com/wouldn't_change_a_thing_lyrics_demi_lovato.html
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

When I'm yes, she's no
When I hold on, he just lets go

We're perfectly imperfect
But I wouldn't change a thing, no
We're like fire and rain
(Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane
(You can drive me insane)

But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars
(We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars
(Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a
Wouldn't change a thing

Samsung Corby Wallpaper: Jang Geun Suk (X'mas)

2010-12-23T10:27:00.003+08:00

New Jang Geun Suk's faces on my Corby! Merry Christmas! :D

Cute, isn't it? Hehe. Jang Geun Suk's fans are welcomed to grab them. And please leave a message too, if u like and grab the wallpapers here! :)

I just finished the 14th episode of 'Mary stayed out all night'. Man... What a cute and warm drama. Really like to see the scenes whenever Kang Mu-Gyeol and Mae-Ri together. Jang Geun Suk and Moon Geun Young really can make a cute couple there! :)

Jang Geun Seok: Hello Hello (Mary stayed out all night OST)

2010-12-22T15:05:00.006+08:00

Jang Geun Suk's third OST for 'Mary stayed out all night' is here! What a cute and happy song! It's entitled 'Hello Hello'.

In the drama, the song's music was composed by Kang Mu-Gyeol (Jang Geun Seok) and the lyrics was written by Wei Mae-Ri (Moon Geun Young). So, it's like a sweet sweet couple couple song. :)

BTW, u can download the song HERE too. Enjoy!

Here's the lyrics with translation:

답답한 거리 위를 서성이던 나에게

I was standing around on the narrow street
스쳐 들리는 무심한 그 한마디

When those indifferent words grazed by me

Hello, Hello 조금 낯설어도
어색하지 않았던 좋은 느낌

Unfamiliar but not awkward, it felt nice

너에게 기대어도 되는걸까 걱정스레

Would it be okay to lean on you?
몹시 구겨진 진심을 펼쳐보이며

With concern, that wrinkled sincerity unfolds in front of me

Thank you, Thank you
그저 고맙다는 솔직함이 전해지고 있어

Conveying my simple, thankful honesty

[Chorus:]

그래요

That’s true

Hello, Hello
귀여운 나의 천사여

my cute angel
언제나 나의 곁을 지켜줘요

Stay by my side always

그리고

And

Thank you, Thank you

너에게 하고싶은 한마디 No No No No

That’s what I want to tell you

고맙다는 그 말 뿐이죠

Just the words thank you

일부러 틀리는게 쉽진 않아 그럴수록

It’s not easy to be deliberately wrong
견뎌내는게 후회만 될테니까

Because the more you do, the more you’ll regret enduring it

I know, I know
그저 웃고있는 삐애로가 좋을지도 몰라

Maybe it’s better for that smiling Pierrot

때묻지 않은채로 일어설 수 있을까

Would I be able to stand up without becoming dirtied?
털어내봐도 아픔은 쌓이지만

Though I brush myself off, the pain builds

She knows, She knows
이제 더이상은 혼자만의 내일이 아니야

No longer is tomorrow only mine

[Chorus:]

수없이 맞대왔던 그모든 세상에게

The world I’ve confronted so many times
인사하는 법을 가르쳐준 그대죠

You’ve taught me to greet it

내맘에 넘쳐나는 이 멜로디를

My heart overflows with this melody
너와 함께 지켜갈거야

I’ll go on together with you

그래요

That’s true

Hello, Hello
귀여운 나의 천사여

my cute angel
언제나 나의 곁을 지켜줘요

Stay by my side always

그리고

And

Thank you, Thank you

너에게 하고싶은 한마디 No No No No

That’s what I want to tell you

사랑한단 고백보다 고맙다는 그 한마디로

More than a love confession, the words thank you

내 모든 맘을 전해요

Convey all my feelings

What a cute song...

Preparation for winter traveling

2010-12-21T16:14:00.006+08:00

*gloves from Universal Traveller*

If u google up the temperature of BeiJing, don't be surprised. Currently it has gone down near to 0°c, and will get colder, soon. So I estimate by the time we go there, it would have been going down below 0°c already. This is gonna be crazy. I suppose it is a bad time to travel in BeiJing.

For us being too get used to the hot and humid weather in Malaysia, 100% we will not be able to stand the cold. Some people who've been there told us that they can't even stand the cold wind during autumn!

I started my packing yesterday and I found that I don't have much long-sleeve shirts. Well, I do have a few sweaters, hopefully is enough to keep me warm. Hm... Maybe I can stock in more when I go there. *evil smiles*. And not to forget the padded jacket to borrow from my cousin.

Luckily I still have some sponsors from Mel, all the way from NZ, her thermals. If not, I really broke until.... Sigh. It's very expensive, u know? There's also a scarf, a pair of gloves and an emergency blanket. I'm not sure about the scarf, but everything for winter she packed for me here are all from Kathmandu. Anyway, thanx a lot, Mel! :)

Mom kept on teasing me for being such a rubbish collector ~~inherit from her own husband~~, saying that surely it won't be enough for me to contain my 'rubbish' in that smaller luggage bag of hers. Well, I'm not sure though, since I haven't really finished packing everything (well, there are still 9 days left), so we'll see. :)

In terms of clothing, I hope everything is there already. For the 1st time in my whole life, I don't pack in my shorts, singlets, and all those beach clothing for traveling. It's kinda weird that I have to dig them all out from my luggage though. Sigh. The only accessories I can wear up to pretty up myself is the scarf, beanie and gloves. :S

I'm still thinking of bringing along some casual dress where I can wear with leggings to keep my legs warm. Well, luckily I still have my boots which I bought for Halloween. :)

Not to forget toiletries to keep the skin moisture enough. If not the skin and lips are gonna cracked and itched badly. My uncle kept on telling me to keep the ears warm too, if not, it might drop unconsciously. This is because there isn't much blood veins in our ears to keep it warm enough. If the ears get too cold, it might freeze up. I wonder if it's true?

Anyway, there are 9 days left until I leave Kuching again. Looking back, I don't do anything much though - No thesis work (totally got it ignored, 'avoid' is a better word); not much of Korean lessons; lazy to keep myself fit. What else? The only thing I achieved is finished knitting my scarf. :S

Knitted heart-shaped keychain

2010-12-18T17:18:00.004+08:00

I've figured out what to do for the heart shape I'm creating...

Yes, key chains. Lovely, isn't it? :)

This red heart here... I spent the most time on it compared to the other 2. Coz I used a thin sewing thread... Well, I saw a huge yarn there, so I just took it to knit. I don't have any red thread here for me to knit too. But anyway, the process of knitting this red heart was driving me crazy. I've doubled up the thread to make the whole thing bigger, who knows... At the end of the day, with diameter of 16 stitches, it is still half size smaller than the other 2. =.=

Anyway, Mel, if u r reading this, then u will now what's heading to u for your birthday. :P I can't help myself from posting it here coz it's too pretty for me dy. Wanna show off a bitof my own artwork. :P

Oh ya, it's not only just this lah. Got some extra stuff. Wait for it lah ya! (Purposely make u feel itchy) *evil laughs*

Sharing (knitting) some loves~

2010-12-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

The heart knitting work... I tried this morning. Well, it came out not so bad. And so I continued to knit for a new one, adjusting here and there to come out with a better one. :)

The one above is my first try. Not so bad, isn't it? Its size... just perfectly nice to be hung on a handphone (should've taken one pic with my Corby just now).

I just did this just now. Been busy going out the whole day, so no time for have a few more tries to do this. Its size (diameter), just the same as the previous one (14 stitches), just that the length is a bit longer coz I wanted to try if it's better looking to have a pointed end instead of a blunted one.

Anyone wants to have some loves? I'm sharing some here. :)

Jang Geun Seok (with babies) Part 6

2010-12-17T12:13:00.008+08:00

Wanna see whether Jang Geun Seok is good at handling babies or not? This post will prove it. Continue to read it to judge it urself. :P ~~For me I think that he's gonna be a very hot dad. :P~~

Jang Geun Seok joined a photo exhibitions for the charity to raise the awareness about adoption, together with other celebrities.

"The 8th Letters of Angels – Happiness exhibit by photographer Jo Se-hyun opened today at the Insadong Art Center. The photo exhibition has been done by the photographer in conjunction with the Social Welfare Society to raise awareness about adoption and erase some of the stigma connected with it in South Korean society." *Further articles Here.

So, this is what is all about. Charity through photography. *thumb up* All the photos are very touching - Lovely warmth. See them for urself, with all Jang Geun Seok's shoots I've embeded, with baby Min Seok. :) ~~Full of fatherly love too!!!~~

Full of warmth, isn't it?

Well, this post is all about Jang Geun Seok with babies. Remember 'Baby and I' the movie with Jang Geun Seok himself and baby Mason?

See how he took care of baby Mason...

What a hot dad!

What a cheeky expression they both have here. Like father like son. :)

Knitting shape of a heart

2010-12-16T23:01:00.003+08:00

I'm so running out of things to do now. So damn boring...

Anyway, I've searched up some more knitting tutorials so that I can use up the half ball of yarn left from my scarf knitting work. And I found this.

This is a technique to make shapes at the edge instead of just knitting all up. Well, for a scarf, it is a most simple way of knitting coz u just continue weaving and weaving, without the needs to check on number of stitches or weaves like crocheting. But for this technique here, it can be used when u wanna knit a HEART SHAPE! :) Of coz, round shape also can... easier.

Anyway, this is what I want to do now... Now determining the size of the heart I wanna knit. But there are a few factors I'm considering though...

1. For what purpose I'm doing a heart-shaped knit?
2. Am I gonna make it as a gift or keep it for myself?

Well, just now I tried one, starting with only 2 stitches and as the rows go on, the more stitches I added. But the shape ended up not so good looking. I suppose its size is too small for an 4.5mm needles.

What's more, u need 2 pairs of needles just to knit a heart shape! If I were to knit a keychain-size heart shape (which is what I was intended to do), I need a real thin needles for it.

Ah well, now that I'm kinda lazy, I will just determine the size of the heart shape I want first, then number of stitches. By then I will see if I want to do it or not. :P

Besides, I've checked out how to knit socks or beanies or sweater. Man, most of them are using crocheting techniques. Well, Mom knows crocheting, but I'm lazy to learn. Coz once I know how to handle, I will have to buy the needle for crocheting. Haha. And FYI, crocheting is even difficult than knitting though! :)

Cross-stitching is the first knitting work I learnt during my secondary school. I learnt it from Dad though. And yes, my dad is good in cross-stitching. All those A0 size works hung on the wall in my living room are all his works. :) But Mom never knows how to do it. She only knows crocheting, or what we also call it as lace-knitting.

Anyway, knitting indeed is a very boring work. But since I'm not in the mood to do any work, I'm so in the mood to look for not-3-not-4 things to do, while waiting for new drama episodes to be downloaded...

Knitting - Last Step

2010-12-14T20:52:00.002+08:00

The 2nd last step of knitting the scarf, is called 'Casting Off'. I thought it was just continued knitting then just pull all the casts off the needle then that's it. NO. Please don't think like I do. U need to have one last step to cast off the threads off the needles. The video below will show u how to do the casting.

To pull the previous cast to the front of the new cast by using the fingers are quite difficult for me. So, just like the very top image I showed here, I used another needle to pick the cast that needs to be pulled off. :)

As for the adding fringe part... I just cut a 5.5-inch long thread, doubled it, then looped it at the end of the scarf. There is no need to have any techniques of casting or weaving or knitting work for it. Just looped them there. :)

And for those who likes to have fuzzy balls just like what they have on the winter hats, u can make your own too! Check this video out. :)

Isn't it easy? :)

Anyway, now that I've finished my scarf, I'm thinking of knitting something else, since I still have half ball of yarn left here. Will search for more tutorials tomoro and see what I can find. :)

Scarf knitting - Complete!

2010-12-14T20:48:00.003+08:00

I've finally completed my scarf knitting work today! *Happy*

Was thinking of either making pompom balls made of yarns at both ends of the scarf, but everyone told me that it looks better to have fringe, and it's easier to make fringe than making the balls, so yeah, I took the majority's advice. :)

The making of the fuzzy balls are quite... wastage of the threads. They all look cute indeed, but nah... it's easier to make hairy ends for the scarf.

I still have more than half of ball of the yarn left. Should have finished it off so that I can knit a longer scarf. To be honest, this scarf I produced, the ends still look short for my proportion if I wrap it on my neck twice. So the only solution is by wearing it one end longer than another...

But anyway... MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! :)

Fallen for photography

2010-12-14T01:03:00.003+08:00

I've got no particular interest towards photography before this. Until I spent more time with Photoshop lately.

Photography is the thing that makes me fall for the architecture at the very 1st place. But I got no big love for photography coz I got no skill and great equipments for it.

Until I found my confidence towards my own eyesight and taste.

Just with my Sony Cybershot DSC W120, a little pink digital cam, I still got myself awed by what it can produce. Of course it cannot do as good as what the DSLRs can do, but so far, it is more than enough for me.

Now I love it more and more each day.

For it captures a lot of memorable moments for me. :)

Siniawan

2010-12-14T00:22:00.007+08:00

Few days ago, I went to a small town called 'Siniawan', about 15 minutes ride from Kuching. It's actually on the route going to Bau, so some parts of the journey goes without street lights, which is quite dangerous actually.

This is the 1st time I went there. And according to Mom, there is a newly-formed night/street market there during weekends, just like Jonker in Malacca. And that night, there was a photography competition to capture images from the market itself. So since I've got nothing to do, Uncle and I went for a night of photography. :)

The journey there was just like night driving when we were at Negeri Sembilan during our 2nd year for 'Measured Drawing' - narrow, 2-way road, with no street lights, the strange welcoming warmth of simple life came to greet us. We saw no street signage when we nearly reached there, just approached the small town with our instincts. From far, we only saw rows of red lanterns, and we just drove towards that direction.

And there we were, arriving at the night market of Siniawan.

Once I stepped out of the car, the excitement conquered. The very first thing that came to my mind was, 'I've arrived at another part of world that no other parts in Kuching has. I've arrived at Jonker.'

There 2 rows of old shophouses laid in parallel in front of us, with red lanterns hung crossing one another in between the heritage architecture. And underneath, there was a sea of busines flooding with food and singing from the stage Karaoke.

Looking back, just few yards away, laid the dark and quiet highway that brought us to this place earlier. What an irony here. It's nearly 20 minutes from the town, this little place here, indeed, the sense of place is able to safe the modern world for a KitKat moment from the chaotic and materialistic life.

The night market, consists of stalls of food, drinks, clothings, cheap toys for kids, and etc. Of coz, it is not as big as Jonker in Malacca, just a smaller version of it. But the feeling, the sense of place, is more than enough I can ask for. I love the place.

The welcoming warmth from the hawkers.

The oldies from the stage KTV.

The heritage architecture.

Being under stars of lanterns.

What else can I ask for?

The facades of the buildings, they all reminded me of Mom and Uncle's old house in Limbang. The designs looks nearly the same, but it was hard to determine how old the buildings are - decades old, could be more than 100 years. One similarity among all the shophouses here, they were not re-painted. The timber used were just left to be 'rotten' with time, shows the wrinkles of ages. Without the spirit of noisiness on the ground, well, it has a good potential to be a haunted town though.

See what I found: 2 chinese newspaper headquarters were used to be located here. There must be quite a big Chinese village used to be located here, say... during the occupation of Japanese? I have no idea too.

Ah well, it was just another night-outing with uncle and his family. :)

Moon Geun Young

2010-12-08T22:27:00.005+08:00

Still remember this?

What about this?

What about linking the top-most image with this?

Ring a bell?

This girl is called Moon Geun Young. She used to play the role of young Yun En Suh in 'Autumn in My Heart'. Man... I still remember Mom mentioned about good she was in crying scenes for being at such a young age...

I didn't know that she's the Mary in 'Mary stayed out all night' until I saw her appeared at a drama series 'Cinderella's Sister' on TV. I recognized her at once from TV as Mary. Then the more I looked at her, the more I felt familiar with that face. Until Wee mentioned that she's En-Suh, then the bell rang. No wonder she looked so familiar.

But in 'Mary stayed out all night', from the 1st few episodes, she looked just like a China Chinese girl. The hair, the face and the attitude... I don't know. I just had this feeling. It's not that I dislike it nor like, just that, I have that feeling. Haha. Until the 8th episode when she got rid of that bushy hair of hers... well, not really get rid, just tied up, the whole feature stands out.

She... is quite a good actress herself there too. :)

And made a cute couple with my boy in the drama. :)

Knitting progress

2010-12-08T21:19:00.005+08:00

Today is the 9th day I'm fooling around with balls of yarn, in the process of completing my knitting work here.

In average, I manage to finish a ball in 3 days. But if I can sit here all day and start knitting once I get up from the bed, I can finish one in 2 days. Seriously.

But knitting work is way too boring and sleepy. Due to these, I need something to keep me awake, or maybe I should say, to keep my brain busy.

In fact, it is my fingers, hands and arms doing the work. The eyes and the brain are just responsible to keep track of the knitting pattern, assuring that the needle doesn't take the wrong weave. The brain doesn't work at all. It's killing me, u know.

I tried to watch some dramas or movies while doing the knitting past few days ago. I couldn't. Everything gone wrong for the 1st few minutes of a movie, so I gave up. I gave it another try today, actually unconsciously, watching a Korean drama, and it worked! So yeah, finally I can find something to keep my brain occupied while my hands are doing the knitting work. :)

Multi-tasking is just so great, isn't it? :)

See how match the colour of the scarf and the winter hat. :)

Currently the length of my scarf has reached 80cm. 3rd ball of yarn. Mom and Dad are kinda worry that I can't finish the knitting work for the trip. Well, let's just hope that I won't give up finishing the scarf, shall we? :)

As u can see from the image above, I've inserted the 2nd colour - darker grey - into the knitting progress. Well, how I did it? Haha. Actually I've forgotten how the tutorial videos I downloaded guided me. I was too lazy to open them up to explore, so I just followed what Mom suggested me the other day. Haha.

Just tied a knot between the previous thread with the new one. Then continue to knit.

Well, Mom does knitting too, but not this kind. Hers is even more difficult, just using one needle with a hook at one end. But from her experience, well, for a fresh beginner like me, how can I not listening to her? :P

autumn swiftlet's diary

我... 不知道能撑多久

喜欢上了他

3 hot guys

A little sad

Love is in the air

Everything new for New Year!!!

A little... Crush

Way too fed up and dissappointed

I deserve it

开始害怕了

The end? Yes it is.

*叹气*

离开得到吗?

-

I want my weekend back

Busy working

I just want to say thank you

My First ZARA

Working life I imagined before

Passion Vs. Realistic

Weekend

How much chemicals we are using everyday?

My work @ MLS

My new life in Singapore

Pei Ni, u're the best

Life turning point

Rubik's Cube

My 2-week holiday

Not in the mood

Nature

Renewing myself

My uni life has come to an end

I'm 25 today

New interest: Composition

Garden Dash

Frustration

喝茶的美德

Choi Si Won photoshooting for Cosmopolitan magazaine

Black Butler - 黑执事

Extremely sinful on such rainy day

Architectural Crunch Time

Soap Opera Dash

Sensonic M60 Optical Mouse

One Fine Day

Never such a shopaholic

Google Chrome extension - GMail notifier & Twitter notifier

Feels so weekend

Self-indulgence to the max

Giving up again?!

Changing new face again

Thrown down from Cloud 9 again

Bad luck

My Pig Rabbit!!!

Angry Birds

Magic one person does

勇气

Eat Pray Love

UK Farm in Johor

Law of Attraction

Present Past Future

RIP grandma

轻视新年的后果

CNY 2011

Pre-CNY 2011

Class 6 Red of '98

Back home for CNY

幸福

Rushing for travelings

Super Show 3 Malaysia

Thesis acknowledgement

More complains...

Frust

Choi Si Won is more handsome than Jang Geun Seok?!

Back to the hot & humid

Pig Rabbit - You're Beautiful

没用的我

Merry X'mas 2010!

Demi Lovato in Camp Rock 2

Samsung Corby Wallpaper: Jang Geun Suk (X'mas)

叹气